The worst relapse of my life.

We're all fallible, we all make mistakes.

You may have gone back to a past habit, but that doesn't mean every other day you were living better is suddenly erased.

I think the most important thing right now is to be kind to yourself, and try to identify exactly what lead to your recent slip up. Make it a lesson to learn from, rather than a crime to be punished for.

Please don't self harm. You may find it very frustrating because it all seemed to be smooth sailing. But there may be one or two things you still need to work on? In the end, it's better to know now and fix these things, rather than continue with the issues still being there.

Hope this helps, take care.

 

Self harm is worse than porn, which you probably already know, right?
Maybe before swearing off the porn you just need to speak to someone who will listen. I do not mean run into a psychologists' office and tell him all about your pmo. But get someone who is empathetic and willing to listen. Not correct you or change you. Not tell you what to do or motivate you. Not some bullshit self help guru. Just to listen to you.
If you cannot (or will not) find such a person (it may not be the greatest time in history to get face to face help) you just might try sitting comfortably and talking to yourself. Some people call it mindfulness, but I don't know about that.
But you just breath naturally and whisper to yourself that you are human and you're not perfect and that is okay.
Contact me if you like. I don't judge.

 

Don't take it so seriously brother, you are being too hard on yourself. Even though you have relapsed you are never back to square one. The important thing is that you are back on your feet again, keep that momentum going, learn from past mistakes, recognize your triggers and you should be fine.

 

Never forget the human minds ability...and sometimes craving to self sabotage in order to make itself feel like shit. Why are we like this? We may never know. It happens in many aspects of life and can happen in worst ways. Do not hate or shame yourself for it. It’s when relationship finally going perfect that we purposely screw it up. It’s when we know we have to study for the exam that we want to get really distracted and fail. It’s when you’ve quit porn and feelin strong that when u relapse, instead of going to a normal porn and escalating l, that we go to the worst possible thing that will make use hate self the most. It’s a human tendency but you had streaks before this and you’re a strong person. You got this bro