Think im cured

Fucked up my sex drive from watching too much porn and escalating my brain .

Got no drive from real life it just randomly disappeared, developed some sort of pied , and lost that crazy hunger for women.
Thought I was an ssri had fucked me up.

Escalated to trans porn , freaked out , got stuck there for a while .

Periodically still watched cam girls but trans porn being new my brain was hooked .

Thought I'd completely fucked my brain up.

Eventually began to get bored of trans porn , not into the dick at all. Realised it was always the female side I was interested in

Long story short , drifting more and more back to female cams and a new found love for women.

Found myself talking to a girl pretty much all day. Had me imagining and fantasizing and the realisation despite losing interest in porn I actually love pussy, as weird as it sounds everything about it , the taste , the smell even the sounds .

I'm not completely back to normal. Because I actually need to stop it all for a good while and let my body and mind recover.

Desensitization , how fucked up.
How fuckin alien

Before escalation I remember just an overall preoccupation with women, and why not , I fuckin love women.

Escalation, pied, a depression or something, been a completely different person, walk-in Talkin zombie , fuckin pussy you could say. Escalation , and completely lost interest , I'd rather have an active drive and hunger and be starving and away from porn. Than no drive, no hunger but porn. Give me back normal any day , resensitize my brain

It's clear to me I can absolutely be resensitized.

What have we done to our brains, do we need to completely abstain for a long time possibly a few years, ain't much happening in my life relationship wise right now , but there is fuck all drive , because if the porn. Where as before all this I had a crazy drive, even if women were hard to get or had every dude under the sun pining for them . I had a strong enough drive to get past the bullshit because genuinely loved women and strong desires , you can make shit work no matter how difficult it can seem , if your drive is strong enough .

When you've fucked yourself up from porn fuck me you'd blow over in the wind .

Unbelievable. I'd rather have that hunger and be starving. Than live in some detached bubble.

May aswell have the snip and develop brain damage because you completely forgotten who you are and your biologically numbed

Wtf have these past few years been all about , my brain must be like Swiss cheese