This has almost nothing do with PMO

Hello

This post has nothing to do with the main reason for why we are all on this website. I am on day 28 of not watching porn. I'm pretty happy with myself. I've noticed that regular humans wearing clothing are becoming more attractive and today a love scene in the Netflix show Lovesick made me happy. It was very much a PG-13 scene where two people who like (or love?) each other have clearly just had sex and there covered in a sheet (to stay classy for the cameras and respectful to the actors/actresses) and there just basking in the after glow of happiness. Anyways, I am glad scenes like that make me happy. I am glad I am finding people regular people on the street more and more attractive. As a side and legal note, I have standards OK? Its not like I stare but I can notice when somebody looks good right?

Anyways, the reason I'm writing at the moment is because a song came up the other day and it reminded me of when my dad was in a hospital in the pre-COVID-19 era. My dad is still alive and well. However, he was very sick. One day, my working class uncle with his very blunt working class mannerism said to me bluntly "your dad is close to death OK? Nobody has told you this yet because people don't want you to freak out but your a man and you can handle this..."

Anyways, I was looking after my dad's dog. My dad's dog is an adorable Irish Terrier - if y'all have never met an Irish Terrier I highly recommend it - they are very high energy, very spirited and when they are in the woods very stubborn and into their own thing - if they find something interesting and they are off leash they wont run after you until they are good and ready. I fucking love Irish Terriers and Lakeland Terriers.

So my dad's dog is at my dad's home and I'm there with her. Its a cold winter night and I am now 100% sure that I'm going to get a call in the next few days saying - your dad is about to cross over to the other side. I thought well this is really sad and I wont worry to much. He'll be happy to see his dad and his grandfather.

I don't know maybe its a sign of strength or a sign of weakness but I always assumed there was a heaven OK? I'm not religious by any means but thats what I've always assumed and like the arrogant person I am I have always assumed everyone I know no matter how badly they screwed up will be forgiven by whoever is the gate keeper to heaven. I assume its some old man, maybe of Chinese ethnic origin reading about how the people are rebelling against the Chinese government AGAIN. Maybe this person has their feet on an ottoman and is big comfortable chair with a pipe as well as a cup of tea OR maybe the person is actually watching the gate with their buddies because it makes it more fun.Thinking it through I bet the person who is watching the gate to heaven is bunch of older working class dudes playing Mahjong. Anyways, I always just assumed they look at all the people I know when they are getting to heaven and they ask about the things they did wrong and in the end everyone laughs at how stupid they were for doing those terrible things everything is forgiven and then two tickets are given for the heaven transport system to get them on their way. Knowing my family my grandmother will probably just say "your late now dinner is cold," when its my time to get there - gosh I hope I'm lucky enough to get there.

Lets be real though, Adolf Hilter and Joseph Stalin are in hell. There is also a pretty good chance Winston Churchill is there for being pro-British Empire and attempting to steal resources away from the people of pretty much every corner of the globe.

So I'm laying on the floor with my dad's dog in my dad's house while he is in the hospital on a cold winter night. That is when this song - This Must be the Place (Talking Heads) covered by the Lumineers came on and I wept and wept and wept. This is a memory that I am having a hard time forgetting.

This was the most therapeutic thing I've written in a long time.

Also how the hell did pouring your heart and confessions out to random strangers in random countries and random time zones become a thing?

If anyone read this - thank you

If not I don't care. Live your best lives. Peace and love.

If anyone is curious about the song here it is -

 

Hey Xeidiv - Thank you - also whats the viking army/viking challenge?

 

Thank you Xeidiv!