This Is For The GF

Hi, 25 yrs old male.

Been fapping to internet porn since I was young, ever since I discovered limewire/kazaa. Fapped close to every day for many years, could easily spend hours edging and finding scenes. Had a large collection at one point but deleted it all and stopped watching porn because of another relationship. After that relationship stuck to streaming porn online. I believe this has led to some PIED when I'm with the GF. I can happily fap to her pics and I'm definitely attracted to her so the issue is likely to be porn.

Problems (possible triggers)-

• Getting and maintaining erections with her is difficult, usually requires my own hand
• Go limp whenever I need to put a condom on
• I can cum, but requires me to use my hand or her to do extremely specific things with her hand/mouth
• If I cum with her once won't be able to get hard for a long while, unlike porn which has a shorter recovery period

I'm not religious at all, and I actually still like porn although I can understand the problems people have with porn so I'm not judging anyone. If I'm ever single for a long period I'd probably go back to it and then restart if a girl came into the picture.

I wouldn't say I'm addicted- I have gone periods without fapping such as when I stay at other people's houses, in relationships or when I'm on holiday. Nor would I say are there deep-rooted psychological reasons for the frequent porn-use. In all honesty I'd say I'm just horny and enjoy fappin to porn. I can still get off on regular porn, never needed to go into anything extreme like scat, transgendered person etc.

I've gone about a week today with no PMO. It hasn't been too hard, I can spend lots of time at the computer, browse the same sites I usually do (not porn, but regular sites with triggers) and not relapse. I get horny but then I remember the rewards I will receive if I can fully recover and enjoy sex properly with my GF- who has been great and understanding btw.
I'm also good at thinking of disgusting things that put me off porn/sex whenever I get urges (if you want boner-killing thoughts let me know lol).

I think my will-power and motivation (GF) will make this easy, aiming for 90 days to start with. Although it will probably end up being for the duration of my relationship- which if it lasts then I guess I won't be going back to porn at all.