Hey...earlier this year i had a streak of 65 days and i relapsed. I have always been asking myself why i did that and today i figured out why. One of my friends in campus invited me to his party, he was/is a year ahead of me. I was anxious about the party, you know there was gonna be lotsa girls and there was particularly one i knew had to attend-i kinda had a thing for her-. I had not felt that anxious since i stopped pmo. But i went,and,of course, there she was in a short short looking as beautiful as ever. But your guy didnt approach her, i didnt know how to. Id even go on and say i was scared. So i just drank got high out of frustrations which i actually never do(the getting high) danced and went home. I profusely fapped the next day. I had succesfully stopped fapping but one of my shortcomings got to me. I think we all know that the first years of pmo were not addictive. But eventually you got addicted. I think my porn addiction was spiked by my inability to approach girls, you know fearing rejection and shyness. And i never really addressed this issue. I got all my girlfriends while drunk. Like one of my guy friends once asked me," Why do you get your girls from clubs". And im like"I love them wild" but deep down i know id rather get hit by a car than approach a girl. So the point was i used porn for solace and also to replace girls for pleasure. And because i didnt lose that fear of rejection i fell deeeeper into porn use. If i can confront it i believe ill win. If you can confront what you consider as your biggest fear, i dont know, it might work.
