Trans porn novelty is dead now it just causes stress

Porn porn porn , oh dear oh dear oh dear.

This genre is dead . Now it just causes me stress, like it Is actually stressful to pmo to.

How fucked is that.

So I say I don't pmo multiple times a day , say its only one my body is healthy and is good hormonally , il watch hot women on cams and pmo, everything about it is good, naturally , no issue getting hard, and obviously love real women. When you finish you just feel calm and move on because let's be honest it's just a pmo .

Now say I pmo a second time today you will end up looking at something different . Trans , because years and years of pmoimg multiple times a day can get boring ( healthy once maybe a few times a week)

So anyway escalated to that. There was novelty In it for a few months always in my mind I was the dominant role . Never into the dick and always covered it ,it was only fantasy .

I've made numerous posts about this and about the fact the novelty is dead now.

The next stage of this story is anytime I try to pmo to it now out of boredom it is nothing but stress, again I still cover up genitals that shit is gross, I think I'm still chasing a weird fantasy even though it's dead.

How fucked is that.

Boredom leads me back to it , yet when I pmo it I physically stressful the entire time but it's like hell now I've started . It's not enjoyable only stressful and fucking disgusting.
And it probably fills my brain with anxiety for hours after.

Why can't I sit still and stop sabotaging myself with all this fucked up shit that only causes stress. Am I that bored . It's like I'm addicted to stress, my brain is stupid or something

I need a long porn detox . Fuck