Wanting more and more..

So I guess this may sound wierd and I am totally at a loss to understand it which is why im posting it here.
So i seem to have this habit thingy, when I used to watch P, I would edge and not M at all. What used to happen was that I would keep wanting to watch more and more until I was totally exhausted.I thought this was a thing associated with P so I left it as it was.

Recently, I started observing the same in normal life.At times, I would want to eat as much as I can, at times it'd be kindness i-e I'd like to be as kind towards random people as I possibly can.At other times, its social media browsing (pointlessly!) etc.

Does any explanation come to mind? Pretty sure I dont have OCD, but I did struggle with anxiety for a while.

 

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