Was wondering something for cigarette smokers here

Hello all, I am new to the forum but am not new to the concept of PIED. The thing I was wondering if any users here can say if they suffered permanent sexual dysfunction from cigarettes . I have been addicted to pornography too so I know that could be contributing to my own e.d problems. So here is a quick run down of me.

I know I am not a hopeful case for the following reasons. I am 27 and have bipolar disorder with psychosis so have been taking antipsychotics for a while now which alone could cause problematic e.d. I also have been smoking cigarettes for 13 years or so. And I have eaten pretty poorly for 3-4 years of my recent years. I am overweight by about 30 pounds and the exercise I get is light cardio on very consistent basis. Why have I been so self destructive? Clinical damn depression and straight up ignorance. I went to a doctor about my e.d at first and he didn't mention cigarettes could cause e.d itself so I kept smoking like a fool. I never had a Medical professional or biology class tell me atherosclerosis can cause e.d and that just sucks. I suppose I should have researched health on my own time in regards to that I still have problems quitting because part of me says the e.d is permanent and cigarettes are one of the last sources I have of pleasure. I had been thinking of suicide often

I also have a sleep disorder and I am currently being treated for it which could also be part of my problem


I am also addicted to various forms of internet pornography I hadn't enjoyed at my earlier foundation of sexuality. I can empathize with the sensitivity lowering through time in that regards. Stuff i can honestly say has no appeal to me in the real world. And have also mainly had long distance girlfriends so the main sexual engagements I have had have been digital. Pretty damn depressing to be honest. The past 4 attempts of real intercourse with different girls were all failures. By the last one I couldn't even get hard at all.

But today I had a burst of inner strength. I refuse to live this way any longer. I must quite cigarettes and pornography and abstain from masturbating as much as I can. I know i may now need some sort of surgery for clogged arteries right? The way I see it is I can save money for an operation and hope my insurance helps cover it. Otherwise I can see the damage is already too bad and I am just out of luck. I know the the psych meds can doom me in themselves even though I am on abilify and a low dose at that. Does anyone have any hope or am I screwed? Can anyone at least relate?

I know this isn't a replacement for medical advice. I will see the doctor tomorrow . Thanks, I don't know if this is how to make a proper introduction so I'm just asking here

 

Thank you for the advice . I'm pretty desperate so I can't see what could go wrong with trying something new..I'll get that food tomorrow and I'll try it from there on. Thank you again it feels really nice to talk to someone about this. It is my deep dark secret . Already determined not to smoke anymore. I almost caved in but I put the cigarette away

 

I'll connect with you .I have no one I can talk about this with that has personal experience. I also don't have too many friends at the moment either.. you have made amazing progress brother. I feel so weak honestly, I am involved with a girl digitally right now and she shares pornography and I care deeply for her. I feel sad too because of the distance I keep smoking cigarettes to relax. I need to get better though. I am tired of having a broken penis! I must do this !

 

I really fostered an emotional connection with her too. It sucks. Because the temptation is so great. I guess I just have to let her do her own thing while I recover. It is difficult but do I have any other choice? I have to stop watching porn and she sends me lots of stuff I loved(or that I was addicted to). I feel I can't just cut things off because she is mentally vulnerable And it would be cruel to her.

Thanks for listening

 

Honest , how did you find overcome stress without the cigarettes?

 

Beautiful words friend . I am heeding your words diligently. I refuse to be her pawn. She has definitely been manipulative now that I look at it. She just wants a comfort blanket. I need the real thing. I'm disregarding all these fake romances. If anything I will be a brother to her as you suggested. I'm deleting all her pictures.

And yes I am new to fighting addiction .I have given it half assed attempts in the past but I'm going to do much better this time. You are really filling me with zeal for this new found way of life. Thank you again .The words really helped in ways I cannot describe. I am writing lyrics Currently because of the stress. I do music. I may not be crazy talented but it helps me . Music and exercise will be my stress relievers