What do you think of, if you have literally 0 problems in life?

Hi, i'm suffering from OCD intrusive thoughts for 2 years already. My problem is that i keep thinking of certain people who might be disturbing looking or just ugly. I used to have normal thoughts as everyone has. Now i have forgotten it, i have no other choice but to ask you what you would think of if you had no problems in life. Or just chilling. I would remember their names and picture their faces in my head. It started with a classmate, then another one, then another one, then my teacher, then my uncles, my aunties, my siblings then my parents. Weird, how could i be disturbed by my own family members? Well not really all, it was my brother and my father. I would say my brother is innocent, but because of how he looks like i got disturbed. As for my father, truth be told, i was molested by him when i was 10. I still have that scar, also, he looks way inappropriate than my brother. So now i don't have the negative thoughts against my brother. The thought keeps moving on to another person that i don't find appropiate. Currently, I think my father is the weirdest member in the family, i don't know how to say it. But he is. Anyway, i would always try to avoid him. Avoid any physical contact or conversations. I never looked at him for weeks. Just like the 30-40 people that i had negative thoughts againts. I think of them when i want to watch a show, hear music, even as i write this thread. Also, When i pray to god, i would think of my classmate. When i play games i think of him/her. But depending on the intensity of the activity i do, like jogging, this thoughts won't come or less likely to come. Nevertheless, honestly, i hate this intrusive thought thing. I tried to watch some videos, i know that the thoughts isn't me. But i can't simply let it go. Whoever had done wrong to me i have forgiven them. I don't know why it's so hard for my stupid brain to let go. I tried researching, can't find anyone suffering this mental illness that i suffer from. So far, all i can do is think of the ones i love or cared for when i think of these people. Or i try disintegrate their faces and names when i picture them in my head. I can't really do anything to actually stop it.

 

Didn't really bother me that much up untill now. Cause i wasn't the only one. My brother too. If i was a girl, i think i'd be disturbed for years from that memory.