Why did I masturbate so often?

I made up my mind, there were many very different causes for me to masturbate. The different causes led me to do it at different times. On my way to get free from masturbation I recognized, that I had to find different ways to respond to, fitting to the respective cause. I found out these causes. Maybe there are some more (I´d apperciate your additions...).

• Fear of missing out something
• beeing used to it
• feeling bored/angry, being sleepless
• good feeling that it makes
• giving in to "urges"

The first three causes are no valid causes. I´m currently working hard on overcoming them. Knowing them is required therefore.
The fourth cause is harder to get under control. I weigh up these short term good feelings against the long term good feelings of being MO-free. Long term wins, ut still short term can be very tempting.
The last one is the most tricky one. These "urges" can switch off the rational brain. In that case I´m doing something I know I´ll regret later but I hardly find a way to stop me from doing this.

 

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