Day 60 for me and honestly this pain is the worst feeling I wouldn't want anyone to ever go through. I sit in the train and people can sense how weak I am and they stare at me. At work, I turned up late cause I didn't want to wake up this morning. I don't feel enjoyment in anything I do. Even sitting at the table with my parents having food I feel like a piece of shit, so anxious. My health is deteriorating and I am losing weight. Sometimes I honestly wish to just end my life and get out of this pain. It hurts so much and it's so painful.... it's beyond imaginable. I just want to sit down and lay down all day and not do anything. just escape the pain.... even when I sleep I can't sleep properly cause mind is that fucked up right now. .... I honestly don't want any sex with girls, no arousal nothing.. I just want my peace of mind back where I can enjoy things.... I honestly can't take this pain anymore.... It kills me and I suffer and continue to struggle with it.. 60 days in a row of suffering these withdrawals.... I feel like a piece of shit and just want this misery to end....
So sorry to hear this Mikey. You might be feeling low now but realise this pain will not last forever. You have taken back control of your life and now it is yours to do as you wish. Is there something you could do, however small, to make things better for you right now?
It's a sadness hear this man, but think: this will end one day. It's withdrawal symptoms, it's a pain in the a** but you have to keep going bro. You're not alone in/on this boat. This won't last forever.
Think if you masturbate and see porn again, you will have to start all over again. It's better to keep going bro: suffer now, be happy in the future.
