Worst Insomnia ever

I have been struggling with it for years but now it is getting out of hand. I can go up to 5 days without sleeping at all. I dont even have the energy to eat. I have spoken to by doc and tried everything. I am using up to 200mg does of antihistamins in combination with A class tranquilzers. I have tried stuff like Imovane, Apodorm and Ambien. Even up to 7 at a time. No effect. I cant function since I am always in a state of fatigue. I have tried painkillers since I am in a lot of pain. Tried Tramadol, Oxynorm and Morphine. I seem immune. It kills the pain of course but my insomnia persist no matter what I throw at it.

 

I didnt realize this got so many replies. I dont get any notifications nowadays. I slept again yesterday after 4 days of no sleep again. It happens every once in a while. I have been trying most techniques, got myself hospitalized for almost a year.

They concluded that I have severe sleeping problems and I have C-PTSD. I started getting prescribed strong tranquilizers rather than strong sleeping medications recently. It works better but I have a habit of skipping them.

I dont want to be addicted but its probably stupid when my doc says I should take Rivotril a couple hours before sleep every day. I also use sleeping medications still. Some of the strongest ones but stuff like Ambien, Xanax and Rohypnol cant be mixed with Rivotril so I am using different ones now.

 

I know its not ideal but not sleeping for days at a time has been quite bad for my mental health. Been a couple episodes where I have just blacked out due to lack of sleep, got into a psychotic episode and ended up in the ER because I tried to kill myself or something similar.

I am quite skeptic to most drugs. I stopped taking anti depressives and anti psychotic drugs a while ago and my mind feel a lot clearer. I was a total zombie for years without realizing.

I still feel like myself on tranquilizers and sleeping medication. I cant use them forever. I have to find healthy coping mechanisms eventually. The tranquilizers took away the edge of my anxiety. It could develop into psychosis but I havent had a psychotic episode since I started taking them.

I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia at first but turned out it was more of a complex trauma disorder. They never removed the first one though. I dont consider myself schizophrenic but PTSD can look similar at times.

Its a two edged sword.

 

Instead of making a new thread with the same title, I am making a post here. I skipped my tranquilizers today. Maybe not a good idea. I took max dosage of 100mg phenergan a few hours ago which is a lot. It just isnt working. It is over 1 am and my mind is racing at a million miles an hour as always. Nothing important happening tomorrow so no reason to be stressed. My body doesnt agree. I am so restless. Cant stay in bed for long before I have to walk around. I am going to loose it if I dont get a proper nights sleep soon.