Hello my big brothers.. I am Ronit..new to this place..I guess this place is the last hope I have left.. I am 24 years old, and I am very honest. So I started fapping when I was 11, during school days, somebody introduced me to porn n like everyone, I got used to seeing it in no time. I started fapping at home, then school(only boys school it was), college became a fapping heaven thinking about all girls n doing the drill(never made gf or maybe couldn't).. I got instant job after college..now within an year I quit my job and came home...reasons : 1. I couldn't stop thinking about fucking every lady or girl I met...I started feeling rotten inside my brain, I felt ashamed but the thoughts didnt go (they still haven't). 2. I started getting a lot of attention..got involved in sex..not with one...but 2 3 girls a day ... 3. I started visiting bad places to find more sex..blah blah...an year went by... And I started feeling weak..fucked up...but the urge never ended. 4. I lost most of my good friends..the attention drew me mad...I started treating girls like objects.n didn't pay heed to a girl who always showed care to me in office gym etc.( I miss her so bad but it's the price I paid for my lustful fucking mind..I will always hate myself for that .. 5. My thoughts were so rotten that whenever I talked to a girl successfully...next thing I pictured was my dick in her mouth( maybe most of us here do that). 6. I couldn't perform well in job ..and it took no time for most girls to have come to know me bcoz..u know ..then I left job due to frustration of weakness ..bad health. ..poor focus. N what not .. . Now the worst things are: Its been an year since I left job..I still fap everyday..I just can't let it go...I lost almost all good friends..lost my inner good person.. I tried NoFap once after reading but it went for 7 days n then I fapped happily after giving up to my motherfucker mind .my mind is my worst enemy now.. I hate myself more than anything...although I talked about it with an elder person n he said its good u have realized bad things in u n trying to recover at a very young age..but still my mind is an asshole. Do you guys realize what a serious illness fapping is? I don't feel love anymore that a guy should feel when he crushes on a girl.. I have my brain in my dick I guess..with each day I say that from tomorrow I will quit...but tomorrow never comes..I have lost my old good life..all frnds :'(....i feel fake all over when talking with others ...love is an extinct term for me.. all my mind would want is porn..even if I don't eat.. women are not sex objects..u all will have one who loved or loves u dearly..but how the hell will we ever be able to explain them what rotten creatures fapping has turned us into? Fapping is an addiction worse than drugs or alcohol .believe me.. 13 years of my fapping has caused me ocd..seizures..wet dreams..more porn urges .what not..I want help to get out of it..plz help me .I am rotten..I need to recover ..please help I m rotten to the core! I am lonely .I don't want lusty sex or porn anymore... P.s - for each one of u who ever had a crush but are now fapstronauts like me...yes u really liked that girl bro..that was love ... now...we all r fucked up in our own lives..we have lost things n ppl...one common reason is due to fapping .. plz help!!!! Otherwise the only way I see out now..is death
Hello @Ronit777 , welcome to the community. I got sad reading your story. I don't have a magic advise, as I haven't experienced what you have lived. But, as you said, you are very young. Look, I'm 36, PMOing since I was 14; and just realized I have an addiction few months ago; and just decided to do something about it the past week. So the most important things to happen in your life are still ahead of you and you have arrived to the right place to prepare for that. Welcome my friend
Yea thanks..it actually feels good to know that I am not alone now ..thanks man.. maybe i could do well now
