The 2019 X90 Hard Mode High Accountability Elimination Challenge

That's great to hear dude, you're inspiring me to do the same. Thank you

 

Way to go!!!

 

That thing does work, I'm gonna use that today Thanks
Keep it going !!

 

I believe you can too, lets do this together!! I look forward to your check in tomorrow!

 

ok guys, i'm gonna be calling myself out today and checking regularly. I've a day where there is alot of opportunity to go looking for something and I'm already in a state of wanting too.

Here's my first check in - rather than going to search for that, i'm here checking in.

 

Hey friend, very sorry to hear yesterday. As hard as it may seem, lets not focus on the bad and as a result feel bad but lets focus on the good.

1. You did and AWESOME 20 days!! That is freaking incredible!!!
2. You learned alot along the way and as a result are a better person
3. You inspire us, you inspire me, you motivate other people and have very valuable contributions to this forum
3a. We value you so much!!
4. You have a tool box full of tools, you now have more experience
5. You're an incredible person and the world is better off for you,
6. You will get thru this and be the man you want to be

Celebrate today as hard as that may sound, find things that make you happy and focus on them.

 

Thank you, I needed this.

 

Checking in - Day 37 on my counter but it's less among the participants cuz I joined later. Yesterday I had a really rough evening, had a bad argument with my daughter (pre-teen years or wtf) which made my evening and bedtime routine just disappear literally. Yelled at her, then wept some more and felt like shit. Then I exchanged a few casual messages with a guy I know who's also on NoFap but he then started to ask me whether I feel more horny or whether this or that part of mine is more sensitive and this was a fucking trigger for me!!! bc I started feeling kinda objectified - I saw the "end" of all this - we would have gone into more kinky stuff followed by me sending him nudes and then some more porn talk and porn itself and my rest and sleep routines totally non-existent by that time. So I told him to stop it right away because it was triggering me, he said sorry but I blocked him nevertheless because it seems now that this is also some sort of addiction or PMO circumventing its way towards me. I need to sit down and write a good list of reasons why chatting with guys who seek only entertainment from me is bad for my mental health. It was hard to make through this feeling of loneliness which followed immediately and lingered on until this morning but now I'm OK. I ate a few cookies yesterday which was not necessary at all but luckily was too tired to go play with the devices - probably the loneliness reduced my sex drive then.

 

Reg this - you may want to try journalling and writing these thoughts down while noting mentally that these are just thoughts floating in your head - for me when I write them down and just acknowledge that they are thoughts (which does not necessarily mean that I'm obliged to act upon them) the inner chatter is reduced.

 

Yup - you're beating an addiction so you've got to stay strong. What is your main purpose for going NoFap? What are your other activities to resort to in order to beat addiction instead of lingering here and debating with your addicted brain cells? I was particularly low this morning - even 20 min meditation did not help at all - but luckily I was at work (people around) and during lunch I dragged myself out for a walk even though it was damn cold and snow storm all around me. My legs tingled from cold after I returned from walk but at least I was again in my body and not in my head. Remember - baby steps - no day counting (nofap counter is doing this for you) - just make a commitment for these 24 hrs and stick to it.

 

Yes it effects your mind. Its feeding that addiction.

Your mind does not care that you're not jerking off, you're getting a dopamine rush from watching it.

If you keep doing that you will eventually give in. You could argue that you're strengthening your resolve by doing that but you're not sitting there thinking about your resolve, you're thinking about what you are watching.

Lastly, the part that you think you're missing out on is your brain lying to you and trying to get you to give in because it wants that release.

Stay strong my friend and dont give in. Turn back now !!

Take care!!

 

Wow that's great, you did awesome despite what you may think. Great job on the blocking.

I use food to feel good too. I allow it when I really need it but I'm careful on the portions so I dont go crazy. I'm doing that so I dont look at p, that's more important than anything right now. So dont worry about the cookies

Take care

 

Wow I'm really proud of you dude, keep it goung

 

I like this alot!!

 

Checking in again, my plans slightly changed in that I wont be as alone as I thought.

Part of me is hurt because as much as i know i wasnt going to watch p I feel I would have watched something.

I'm happy even that wont happen.