Relapsed and feel ashamed

I can empathize with you. Coming up with ways to justify the behavior. I used to have very long streaks of success but now I can barely go two weeks. It's because I justify my behavior. I will look at P and then MO later. Not looking at it and not thinking about it but doing it separately is just a way to cheat but I'm just cheating myself. I've allowed too many small things in that build up into something much bigger. I understand the shame but it's good that you're not going to beat yourself up too much. Sometimes that can really do more harm than good. Stay strong and don't ever give up. That's when we truly fail.

 

I know what it's like to feel ashamed. The good news is that it doesn't last forever if you change your ways. It's important to be conscious of what you're doing and ask yourself why you want to do it, then ask yourself if it is really a good idea. With this stuff the juice is rarely, if ever, worth the squeeze. Don't be too hard on yourself, but don't be too lenient either. Hope that helps.

 

I don't think I had enough willpower when I was in my 20's.
Now it's a different story because my libido decreased.