5 days in, trying for 90

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by David1980, Apr 5, 2015.

  1. David1980

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    I'm 5 days into my reboot after being diagnosed with PIED from my Dr, I had no idea porn could be the root cause of such a thing, I'm 34 and have been masturbating to porn since the mid 90's when the internet revolutionized how porn became available, not sure how this is gonna go but glad I found this forum to find support, really worried I'm gonna have a relapse at some point as I've been taking care of buisness to porn 5-7 times a week every week for the better part of 10 years and watching porn more often than that, even though I've had sexual partners I've still felt the urge to masturbate which I learned this week was an addiction to dopamine that my brain was craving, trying for 90 days wish me luck on my journey
     
  2. Cooldude4

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    All the best for this. Believe me, once you are out of addiction. You are not going to go back.
    Live strong. Stay happy.
     
  3. David1980

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    Thank you for the support blogboy
     
  4. David1980

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    I'm gonna start using this as a journal of sorts, maybe some of you guys can give me some advice here, I quit watching porn on march 31st and have had some desires to PMO but have held firm but have noticed simple things that are hard to avoid, such as an underwear commercial on tv today caused some urges today, is there anything I can do other than not watch tv to avoid these urges, as soon as I saw what it was I turned my head but that only helped me start to imagine it rather than see it, any advice would be appreciated
     
  5. Kenzo89

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    There are many things which can cause one to feel urges. You need a warriors mentality to approach this.
    I'm speaking out of experience because I failed myself a few times. You willpower needs to be firm, it won't be easy but it will be worth it at the end.
     
  6. I was also pretty shocked to discover the link between porn and PIED. Like you I only found out once it was too late and I had become addicted after I guess 15 years or so of using porn. Keep the journal going. I think its good for you to share your struggles. That's my plan.
     
  7. kamado86

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    Good luck pal you can do it. Stay strong :)
     
  8. smokie

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    You and I sound to be in the same boat David.

    Similar story with the 90s digital revolution etc.
    I am 32 and have gone cold turkey since April 1
    Going for 90 days.

    I am with you.

    I have been trying to stay strong for the most part. Feeling the urge, bu not acting out. Willpower and blocking out things from your mind helps as well as avoiding anything that could trigger it.

    Let's support each other :)
     
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  9. David1980

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    Smokie if you want to post stuff here feel free, I could always use the help and it's awesome to know there's guys my age who are going through it to, sounds weird saying that but I know I'm not alone on this and neither are you, I'm with you let's go 90 together, we can do it, all I ask is that you be honest with yourself, if I mess up somewhere ill post it and I hope you feel safe enough you will to, thanks smokie
     
  10. smokie

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    Sure David

    I will try to post here and will be honest and post here if I mess up.

    Good luck
     
  11. The Eleven

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    I'm just pleased to hear that your physician diagnosed your PIED. I don't think most of the conventional medical world has completely caught up to the kinds of things we're talking about in here. Hell, I spent years talking to various medical professionals about my ED and nobody ever mentioned PIED. I only learned about it myself several weeks ago. Maybe there's hope....maybe the word is getting out and the next generation can be spared this horrible ride.
     
  12. smokie

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    I messed up

    I was having tremendous pain cause of BB and prostate pain. So feeling better. No justification but No P
    Just M

    I think the odd M cause of pain is okay without P, but that's just me.

    I don't want some permanent damange.

    Just being honest
     
  13. Radon19

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    Thanks for sharing man. I'm 31 and have been masturbating to porn for the last 20 years, never being able to stop for more than few days at a time. Before the internet was magazines and DVDs, and order Playboy on pay-per-view cable! Remember those days? Lol

    I have 7 days today, so we're in the same boat. Let me know if you need an accountability partner.
     
  14. smokie

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    What is an accountability partner?

    Just sharing or more than that?
     
  15. The Eleven

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    Bullshit. You've been trying to come up with an excuse to M since the minute you arrived on this site. Edging, manscaping, massage, now to relieve blue balls. Bullshit. This site is full of good people who are taking this shit seriously. Get serious or stop wasting our time.

    Seriously, if you're ever ready to actually try to do something, let us know. Otherwise, go find someone else to bother.
     
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  16. smokie

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    I am totally in for taking this seriously

    I was just asking about people's opinions regarding those things.

    I apologize if I have upset anyone on here.

    That was not my intention at all
     
  17. The Eleven

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    Stop apologizing and start acting like you actually want to stop. Honestly, go back and read your posts and tell me whether they sound like someone who is taking this seriously, or someone who's definitely going to continue to PMO but just wants someone to commiserate with?

    I see so many people in here trying so hard, trying desperately to beat this fucking thing, and here you are all "Oh, should I go get a massage? Because massages make me want to O. Oops, I just PMO'd, sorry." It's really annoying and shows disrespect to the people who are busting their asses in here.

    I'm sorry if you actually have a problem and really want to solve it, but you're certainly not acting like it. And with your attitude, you're never going to make it. I suggest you spend some time thinking about what you really want and whether you're willing and able to go through what you're going to need to endure to get there.
     
  18. smokie

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    Thank you for a kick up the ass
     
  19. The Eleven

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    Wow seems I missed a bit while I was away, my dr never mentioned pied either, I came to him with it and he said it sounds as good as any other idea as we've ruled out everything else it could be, and smokie I hope that was good for you do hear that, stay strong don't edge or anything else that might be tempting and you have to believe to start with if it's something you want to accomplish, I'm not gonna lie my balls don't feel great they're sucked up like a pair of fat fucking grapes but I'm steadfast on doing this not just for me but for my family also which is much more important than anything, which leads me to my next subject, telling the spouse hasn't gone as well as I'd hoped it would, matter of fact it's not going well at all, all she can think about is "You can get your dick hard and jack off to a flick but not with me", any of you other guys have similar issues with their spouse and any advice would help getting her through this tough time??