Hey man. Just started reading through your journal. Married here too. Abused as a kid. Fear for my marriage. I'm pulling for you, however things turn out.
Well, that depends. You could spend some time looking around, reading other journals. You could start a journal of your own to introduce yourself and let others know who you are and why you're here. There's no one right answer to how to begin...
I know what you mean. Just remember the 3-second rule and you should be OK. You're breaking a habit you built up over a long time, so it will take some time to replace it with a new one.
Thanks, Marise! Feeling better today than yesterday, and that's probably as much as we can ask, isn't it? I hope all is well with you, too. Have a great weekend!