Day 29. Getting fidgety sleep for the past few days. Not dreams as such but restlessness and I know it's the work of PMO forces. This time though, I'm not giving in to thoughts of temptation and they aren't that strong either. Resolve is building slowly. I'm meeting more friends regularly, getting more confident, and soon, the time will come to take bigger decisions on the personal front. Stay Strong brothers!
Day 10 complete! I missed checking in yesterday as I simply felt too overwhelmed with assignments and meetings but I did not give in! I'm amazed to think that my streak has reached double digits. Haven't been here in...about three years, I think. Today was rough. Still clean, but there were many moments I didn't want to be. I was just...out of it, lots of brain fog, exhaustion, low energy and motivation. I came very close to peeking probably half a dozen times and I deliberately put myself within reach of potentially triggering material. Today I fought the battle of feeling like going PMO free was silly and useless. I believe someone was talking about it in this thread a few pages back: there are times when you really do just want to watch porn or jack off, and you feel like nothing would be wrong with it. It would be strange, frightening, and perhaps almost sad to realize that never again in your life, not once, do you intend to do those things, not when they've been with you for years. Friends, please help me remember that we are all fighting this battle for a reason, and that our lives will be so much better when victory is ours. Viva la Virgen de Guadalupe! Viva Cristo Rey!
Day 25 Feeling more urges lately, I think my body is sometimes bored or something. So far I've been able to dodge them all. I think this is a critical phase for me, as I'm usually relapsing around the 30-day mark. I will fight this time. I want to be strong!
Day 7 @RiseToGreatness I am uruk Hai right now... Finally freed myself from orc spell This time I really wanna pass #NNN Challenge.. I really wanna go beyond 30 days and more and I think I will... And i am very grateful that I reached 7 days.. Thanks everyone for supporting
Day 5. Count on our prayers. Try to fight this battle were you can win it: when the cravings, urges or temptations appear. A lie we told to us it´s that we can quit when we want, so we justify going "fishing" or starting to view porn. Now you have a better life without PMO, stay in it and don´t go back to the cave. You can do it! ¡Vivan! ¡Viva el Sagrado Corazón de Jesús! Un grito de guerra se escucha en la faz de la Tierra y en todo lugar... ¡Viva Cristo Rey! A life without the adicction of PM is possible. And it´s a better life. Where you want to live the rest of your life? In Mordor as a filthy orc or in Rivendel as a wise elf? Cervantes wrote: "each one is the architect of his fortune, of his destiny" and "the path of virtue is very narrow and the path of vice is wide and spacious". In porn you easily fall, but it´s hard to recover. To achieve that you have God, the Sacraments, your family, your friends and us. You are not alone in your way to Hapinness. No one can walk that path alone. And the happier you are, the more happy those around you will be. In life you will find good and bad everywhere, because the tares grow between the wheat and the City of the world is united with the City of God, and the time has not yet come for Christ to separate them. Man is neither completely good by nature nor completely bad, he was created with a good nature that fell through sin and has to be redeemed. So, "where sin abounded, grace abounded all the more". Pray for the Grace, go to confession, atend to mass... Remember that faith without works is dead, that works without faith are vain; that although man is weak, makes mistakes and does evil that he does not want, he can be more than an ancient hero: a saint, if he says like Mary "Let it be done to me according to your Word". Don´t try to be perfect, try to do good posible. "Fear not this night", because the war is already won, now it is up to us to decide in our lives if we want to go on the winning side or on the loser. But I will not deceive you, in life we will find more battles lost than won. However, these are temporary like the world, what matters is eternity, the final supernatural victory. In those moments of darkness, it helps me to remember Durin's song, especially the verses "but still the sunken stars appears in dark and windless Mirrormere." Even though Durin is long dead, even though Moria has lost his greatness, even though Sauron looks like he's going to win, even though the shadows cover the earth, the stars are still in the sky, wherever evil will never reach them, preserving the beauty that Durin once fell in love with, giving hope to little hobbits that evil will pass and the stars will remain. And despite everything I have written to you -I hope it helps you and whoever reads it-, it could be summed up in the words of good Sanwise Gamgee: “Frodo: I can’t do this, Sam. Sam: I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are. It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy. How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad happened. But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something. Even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn’t. Because they were holding on to something. Frodo: What are we holding on to, Sam? Sam: That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it’s worth fighting for.”
Day 14. like I said it's being a hard week but I'm doing my best with the hope that this fight can be win. don't give up brothers and sisters we can do it.