4 months ago i think, i was smoking cannabis everyday for months. All my money went on it. I had a great first job, everything was professional the people there were patient and i decided to leave after 6 weeks because i wanted to smoke cannabis all day, after that i bounced in and out of jobs but my smoking habit was daily, all the time. I regret this of course because it was plain childish and stupid, once i couldn't support my habit anymore however, i quit completely, i went from spending around £50-£80 a week to nothing. I'm glad i have the self control to make that smart decision, i chalk it up to a life lesson don't do drugs maybe? No. Don't let drugs be your sole focus in life. i replaced weed with alcohol, for afew months i was drinking several times a week, once following a really bad depression/suicidal state i drank for 2 weeks straight. Now I've cut back drinking completely, aside from once a week when i visit my nan on the weekends which is fine, even then i don't get drunk. This may belong in self improvement thread but it's not explictly just improvement.
I've found my desire for drugs (of any kind) decreases as my life gets better, more ordered, and happier. Tied into this is my faith, which has meaningfully made me happier and better. In my past, I've used a wide array. Looking back, I think there were a few different motivations to use drugs... 1. A desire to "blot out consciousness," escape whatever present reality I was in, 2. An exploratory/adventurous "psychonaut" attitude, 3. The idea that I could not achieve the level of highs/happiness/consciousness I would arrive at through drugs. Different substances satisfied each of these in different ways. 1. The desire to "blot out" is eliminated by making my sober life one that I actually want to live in. 2. The "psychonaut" spirit is much better satisfied by real-life exploration (of cities, nature, etc.), or spiritual practice (prayer, adoration, meditation, chanting...) as well as journaling, reading, reflection, deep conversations, etc. Ultimately I found that drugs had an upper bound in this respect -- while I would reach some heights of psychonautics, the lessons didn't really stick with me when not using the drug. And the lessons learned didn't keep growing in number. 3. This misperception is corrected by experiencing real joy and happiness in everyday life, especially mediated by growing close to other people and to God.
I'm not entirely convinced about "real life happiness" yet but I'll start with quitting pmo and start heading to the gym. I mean i can do all the drugs i want when I'm retired right?
wish i could grow my own. I'll do that at some point when i have my own place, it's the UK so they're quite petty about it but oh well.
I think it was a good idea that you quit. Quitting completely after using everyday wouldn't of been easy, so well done on kicking it. I don't think drugs are a good idea anyway, especially for someone struggling with any kind of addiction or problems delaying gratification ie porn. Best to stay well clear in my opinion.
What do you mean? Porn is addictive and has ruined a lot of posters on here. It causes sexual dysfunction.
Porn is destructive, dude. It changes your brain, can give you sense of de-realization, make you look at women in a different way, often sexualizing them, can wrap your mind and hook you into addiction. Some people get addicted to fucked up genres too. Porn can basically destroy someone's mind.
There was a turning point with weed for me. The first 1yr-2yr was amazing, peaceful, great nights with my lady, fun as hell, made me happy. Then it suddenly made me constantly paranoid and to the point where things started to go a little schizophrenic when I was high, so I completely cut it out.