That's great that you know your primary trigger. If you wish you can do some research on boredom and how not to stay in that state of emotion for too long. Also, be aware of secondary emotional triggers such as stress as @hollyman has alluded to. I hope you get back on the horse and carry on even stronger!
Check-in day 5 I think after this war I will take an indefinite hiatus from the NoFap website as a whole and from reading any porn rebooting material for a while to give myself a break and just live life without being reminded of this struggle of sobriety. I feel that every time I log in to NoFap, I am reminded of being a porn addict and shame just wells up within me and I hate that feeling. I just want to forget about my porn addiction and live life. I know this is not how recovery works but let me see how I fare once this war is over.
Day 5 check in.This is one of the worst nofap down days I had.Like today I almost gave up.Too many negative thoughts.My dopamine system is numb.Hopefully its part of recovery.Its currently day 239 for me.For last 200 days I havent had a day when i felt completely motivated and happy.Only little up days where i wasnt depressed.And worst thing is I cannot find anyone who had the same issue and healed.That would atleast give me motivation to continue.And my brain is fucking with me because there were some days where i felt like benefits are coming soon but nah nothing.Like week ago I got wet dream.And when i searched about wet dreams it said that is brain rebalancing chemicals.I thought to myself it might be the final stage of recovery.I felt good for 3 days then bam back to depression.Thing I hate most about recovery is that you cant feel any joy or satisfaction from anything and my assertivity is completely gone.Well my goal is to make it past day 365 which will be in april 8 2022.I hope that I make it.
well my friend life is hard for that we must strive If you have 1 reason to fap because of life, why dont you have 1 reason to fight for your life
im so happy to see my enemy in dispair but as a fellow fighter its not a sight to enjoy it Im not experienced on that high strike as high as yours but i experienced relapse at hight streak,, lemme tell you when post nut clarity hit, its be like omg what am i doing but after couple hours it will be full session of porn.. The ammount of chasser effect hit so different man trust me its really hard to fight, the higher the streak the harder to come back mine was arround 150 days and it was in 2019, i need legit 1 year yet im not even close to my personal record Seek help from the higher streak warrior in this forum known as "the elite", they might have some answer Lastly i do believe the core reason of these forum is forever no porn, so forget abbout that utopia called when i watch porn everything is gona be ok... Its just a simple fatamorgana...an illusion in the dessert
Day 6 I do feel like confused this time, forgot a lot and less energy when go to the gym, hope this just another sign of recovery
Gotta say i underestimated you.Two days ago you bastard nearly got me with that hidden flamethrower.Well time to freeze you forever
Still got plenty of flamethrowers locked away. Gonna roast you like a marshmallow. Day 7. A week of war survived.