Checking in. Today i hit the 80 days mark. All i know is: i still got a long way to go. May your day be a good one, may God give you the strenght necessary to fight and win your battles. Strenght & Honor.
Day 17 reached! Working in the best version of myself, logged out of social networks againt, that is something useful for me. Keeping strong!
End of day 70. Rough day, got a headache in the middle of the day, didn’t do a lot of work, almost none. Next time I will go home if I feel like this. No time to think about something improper. I am a Warrior of Gondor now. Great to be a part of this company!
I just deleted reddit off my phone. A post (not even porn) triggered me so much, that I started looking for porn substitutes. I ended up reading erotica, which definitely counts as a relapse. Back to being a Nazgûl - Day 0
Checking in Fellowship!! Back to work today, and overall a good day. Although i´m a bit tired, anxious and foggy compared to yesterday. But that´s the withdrawal rollercoaster, i know I studied a bit about the reboot, and now i´m staying accountable. No urges, still in flatline Have a great day brave Warriors!! Onward!!!
Welp, back to day 0. I ended up having too much to drink, I tried Royal crown Whiskey and Coke, thinking that the alcohol content of 7% was no big deal, so I had 4 of them, which is 28% and I can drink up to 35% before it starts to affect me in a bad way, so I thought I would be safe. Well, either the alcohol content was mislabeled and it was actually more per volume, or my recent weight loss affected how much I could handle. Either way, I screwed up and should've been more careful, knowing I was trying to kick another habit that involved willpower, so I got nobody to blame but myself. The only silver lining is now I got another thing to add to my 'Not to do' list, so hopefully that means I'll come out of this a little wiser.
As I check in today, with the Doors of Durin and Moria in sight, I think a quote from the dwarven legend Gimli is in order: “Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.” My road has seemed open and bright this past week and I have been blessed with a general lack of urges and temptations. I wish that same experience for each of my companions in this fellowship, as often and as enduring as such respites can be found in times of war. While I am grateful for the lighter steps, I know that my path will enter darker roads from time to time. Many of you are feeling the pangs of orc stench and starting your journey over. Others are far into their journeys and feeling the weight of Sauron's eye upon them. May we keep the faith and stay true to to our fellowship as we stare into roads that no light seems to pierce. I will write more of what is aiding me on my quest in my NoFap journal; perhaps some of you can draw strength from me while I have it--I am sure to lean on your strength in future days.
Happens to me also, some days I feel like I won, and the next day I feel that I'm just going to relapse when I forget why I am doing this when I lose motivation when the only remaining voice says "Do not trash all this effort and sacrifice", "There is nothing there for you"