Reset back to day 0 - I started slipping yesterday on many fronts of my life and it all came crashing down today. I've made tremendous progress in improving my life in the past 2 years, and a big part of my motivation in the beginning was the streaks that I achieved in NoFap, but sadly i have been unable to go far in the past months. I'l be graduating from Uni in a few months, embarking on a new chapter of my life and if there is one thing that i truly want to leave behind from my past darker days it's this rotten addiction. I don't want to carry it for any longer and risk it infecting my life further then it already has. I have made up my mind to truly tackle and defeat this curse before i take that next step. I'm making a promise to myself and to everyone here that I will get it done! I will destroy the ring, no more excuses!
Stay strong, and remember at 45 you'll receive a new object. You are reaching the middle of the way. About the pied I don't know what to say. My best wishes for you fellow
Day 3 It looks like I am on track again. I have felt depressed for no reason. Indeed everything is excellent right now. I had some urges but nothing critical yet. Stay strong
Day 111 Still recovering from a cold and ended up leaving work early to rest, had a chilled afternoon but didn’t accomplish all I wanted to today. Had quite a down moment thinking about some of my past mistakes and worrying about how I could share them with my future partner, but in the midst of these feelings I got a text that I believe was a sign from God that I shouldn’t worry too much - I could be wrong, but it seems like providence rather than coincidence. Urges were actually quite difficult today, my friends are getting married next week and the chat I had with them just made me realise how badly I want a relationship, even though I’m not certain I’m in the right place to begin one. I pray that God will show me the right path, and all I have to do is follow it faithfully.
Day 43 Having a hard time, but I know if I relapse it'll be hard to get back here... I think I'm just overwhelmed with everything. I tend to blow things up at a certain point and that point is here. I'll have to overcome it and keep going this time.
Day 3 complete! I did a good job today of maintaining a general, background awareness of my mental and emotional states, the places my thoughts were heading. No big urges, but it makes me feel like I'll be able to catch them and nip them in the bud when they do arrive. @Talz Blow things up how? You mean in terms of your NoFap streak? St. Clare of Assisi, pray for us!
Day 11 complete. I am getting better. I keep sleeping for 8h, I keep doing the little tasks ouside of work and things are clearing. I am working out. I don’t do that much in work, but I still feel good
I tend to have periods of being very disciplined, perfectionist, etc. and then just randomly self destruct all that progress at once and go back to zero. So my nofap streak would be part of that. I'm trying to fall back to what really matters right now and my nofap streak does, so I'm trying to protect it regardless of how I feel.