Post published by cabbagE_

I'm stuck in a pretty difficult situation and I need help from you guys.

My mom has been scheduling meetings to get my temple recommend renewed, but me literally relapsing almost every other day and not improving much, don't feel worthy to go and I wan to know how I could get out of this.

Please don't tell me to tell my mom, because if she ever found out, she would be completely crushed. My life would be ruined. This is not a viable option.

So please help me. And also, I've been stuck relapsing every 2-3 days and haven't been able to get out of this for months! I've been trying soooo hard, I've been praying, I've been reading my scriptures, I've really been doing everything and have been trying to stop actively for months, but I just haven't been able to. Everytime I think i'm going to go onto a week without PMO, on day 4, I'll relapse, even though I fight my hardest. I'm so weak recently and it's like I haven't been able to control my body. I almost subconsciously relapse. I'm stuck and can't stop. My goal ever since I started NoFap has been to complete the 3 month challenge before I turn 15 in August, but recently, it seems almost impossible. I've been trying for months and months, but I haven't been able to even do a solid month. My best ever time has been 24 days. And every day I go onto NoFap and see tens of new sucess stories, and people saying how they have streaks of 6 months after being on NoFap for only 7 months. I've been losing confidence and feel so terrible. I desperately need to learn how to get more self control, because for the last half of my life, ever since I got addicted to porn and masturbation at age 7, I've had none. Now please help me. I've been begging God to help me for months - no, years to help me, and it's helped sometimes, but I need self relience at this point more than anything else. I've been trying to do all I can for months without any streak over a week and this has started to cause me to go into a depression.

Any help out of the situation with my mom, and help with how to gain self relience would be SUPER helpful and I will be eternally grateful of any help.

Also, on another side note, how do I make a journal? Also how could I make a link to my journal as my signature? I think that that could help a lot on my journey of becoming PMO free. Thanks so much for just reading up until now, and I hope you do well on your PMO free journey.