BetrayedMermaid

27 mo. from Dday. He's still on the course he set. No relapses if honest. I'm still healing. Still separated. Yes, it takes that long.

Still legally separated, it's been 23 months. Despite him still working his recovery successfully, I struggle trusting him. Wish I could.

18 months post Day. Healing still happening on both sides. If he's being honest, 2 slips, 0 relapses, 1 lie. I'm a strong ass woman now.

Separated but spending time together. Taking trust building class together. I'm proud of him and appreciate his determination and strength.

Separated husband appears to be doing well in his recovery and in helping me heal. Tonight is our first "reconciliation" counseling.

17 months post D-day. Still healing, much better now. Is it possible to rebuilt trust? It took me 17 months to even want to find out.

Husband is done with Out of the Shadows workbook, 15 months of sex addiction counseling. I'll attend the next session to see the progress.

Well, that's a cool-ass name you got there. How'd you come up with it?

15 months since Dday, 5 months since last caught lie. Invited him to Hawaii. Hope I'm strong enough for this. Triggers will be everywhere.

How long will you wait for me to heal in this "gray abyss"? He said "I'll sit with your for as long as you want me." I'm feeling safer.

My husband made the 1 year mark with 2 slips no relapses if he is being honest. I'm very proud of him for making his recovery his priority.

I'm emotionally healing nicely, but now my body is complaining. Too much hiking to deal with stress has affected my sacroiliac joint. ugh.

Husband signed me up and payed for class "Hope after Betrayal", 12 weeks. Looking forward to it, didn't take long for us ladies to bond.

Kids are the light in the darkness this Christmas. All 4 kids know the extent of his addiction and find support in each other for healing.

It was near this time last year that he MO’d thinking of my daughter after he’d watched step daughter porn. She gets apology letter today.

He loves his addiction more than he loves me. Even with all his effort- He desires others, not me. I wish I didn’t love him.

Heart broken again. He lied... again, out of fear. Such a stupid lie, but if he lies here, how can I trust he is being honest in anything?

We would have made it if he hadn't crossed the stepdaughter line. I wish him a healthy recovery and may it last a life time.

My daughter is feeling betrayed by my love for my husband (striving well in recovery). Can't juggle both... goodbye husband. Heartbroken.

Watching my daughter now going through emotional trauma because of my husband's porn addiction, pulling me back into despair. Fuck porn.