Recent content by Such Small Hands

Thank you. Way back in the beginning of my NoFap journey, I looked into SAA and tried (in vain) to convince myself to go. I guess I was too afraid to talk about my issues with other people, in person. Still am. But it's getting to the point where my fear is barring me from healing my soul. I...

Thank you, it does. Disassociating my shame from myself (in a way that helps me deal with it appropriately) has been the most difficult part of this process.

Not quite sure if this is the right subforum to post this, but here goes: Just as a preface, I understand that the best way for me to deal with my issue is long-term therapy (or some form of professional guidance counseling - I've done therapy before, which I'll go over in more detail below, so...

Had a few-month-stretch of serenity, a measure of peace - then relapsed quite recently, and HARD. Been going at it almost daily ever since.

Fuuuuuuuck

I was exhausted, didn't even feel like it - but relapsed, anyway. Addiction.

It is a void, without hope nor joy nor a sense of self. Only sensation, which is quickly vacuumed into the same pit your virtues vanish in.

Another night of relapse. I have to stop. This is getting dangerous. I'm losing control.

Rejection is universal. The pain should decrease, even if the memory stays. Life goes on. Keep being the best you can be.

God damn it.

I've always appreciated the openness of the people here. And I just don't want to be a lurker. I have to start encouraging people (and me.)

There's no use being on this site if I'm not involved. If i can't motivate myself to be a part of this community, then I need to go!

Going to start seeing a counselor for this addiction. Hopefully this will help!

Seriously thinking about seeing a counselor for this. It's too damn far gone, now.

Jesus Christ what the fuk am I doing with my life. I can't be such a hypocrite. No respect, none