Dream journal starts on page two I created this to help me lucid dream and gain control of wet dreams Hello, thank you for coming welcome to my poetry corner here’s a cup of your favorite drink I want you to know I love you I love everyone such is the way of the Pema but don’t push me
Well being positive is tiresome I guess it’s a muscle Just gotta keep releasing the pressure I change a lot but I’m getting consistent with some things like work and my training.
Hmmm Making up my mind is an evolving process I must keep learning Evolving and growing is important, I’m glad for this time in monk mode.
Meditation is key so is reading scripture at least for me right now My morning routine is becoming legendary, I’m getting closer to returning to the gym.
Practicing jump rope gonna try and do it For real at the gym I’m actually kind of good at jump rope, I can do all kinds of tricks and double unders when I practice.
This is for myself So I can have poems that don’t disappear if others like it that’s nice, but not necessary
Building from the inside out Relaxing paying off How about that ? I’m pretty full off my vegetarian breakfast
Well gotta just become a good semen holder Now is not the time to be thinking about or looking at girls it’s just time to figure out how to be maintaining a long semen retention streak dedicated to legumes honey kefir and apples Alright that’s enough. Eating hot sauce at night messed me up. Sharing my nofap practices with others messed me up. I will only talk to people about my nofap stuff who will adequately support it and actually have a streak themselves.
I’m depressed right now I have to do more japa and less aphrodisiac things just waiting on my book to come next week when you relapse you lose all your merit I’ll look back on my failures one day and see them as minor learning experiences in the grand scheme of my life.
Waking up at 4am guess I’ll do it fit a while see how it goes amazing how good it feels waking up early people are more nice I feel like anything is possible with all this time in the morning —- Rainbows and shades of grey Graphite and color Can we all work together to make a pretty picture? Keep swimming stay afloat stay alive Stroke breathe stroke I will live on I won’t let the darkness pull me under Three threads? Am I being too greedy? Maybe just enough idk. I’ll keep it extra short weekdays. 333. I shaved my head, I am one punch man
I dreamt I was in a cyberpunk reality version of my own life. I was this virgin Esque person. And there was a prostite that my friend was familiar with. She had scars and cybernetic parts but was still beautiful. Her pimp a female with tattoos. Saw the future that it I had sec with her pro the pro would turn into a bat like creature. I said I wouldn’t sleep with her. Outside were cops and a helicopter looking for criminals. I was afraid to go outside to take out the trash at night. I woke up periodically and pulled out of the dream to do my japa to prevent any lust. I thought something like ‘I’m getting more professional and I don’t like it.’ Interpretation : in real life I’m getting more professional. I’ve been a very casual person most of my life. Using lots of slang and substances in my youth. No needles. I guess the dream represents that I am not wanting to sleep with women just for the sex. And that maybe I recognize it’s not good for the woman to do so. Represented by the pro turning into a bat if I slept with her and no one wanting that. Also I could use a bit more japa maybe to sleep through So stuff is still a struggle with the skin but I’m trying to do skin hypnosis and minimize social interaction while still doing some minimum stuff because that helps life is hard but life is nice too I want to live to 100 or more I like having a journal I can be different and it’s normal I’ll only journal privately on paper though. Otherwise it tends to get out of control. Something about isolating on a screen for too long. I don’t want the world to see me cuz I don’t think that they’d understand my flaws skinny acne told I’m insecure by my parents and ex Still I feel pretty