Hey guys, Getting real fucking close to relapsing... and 1 day away from the big 30. I don't quite know what to do right now. I peeked at porn a bit and its obvious my head is still in it. Edged once today earlier. I'm not about to give up on 30 days but at this point my thoughts are like "just M without P, dont fantasize just do it" and its obviously bullshit but wow, i didn't think it would be this hard. I don't know why I'm posting but its better than nothing. Fuck.
Hey man, just remember IT'S NOT WORTH IT. Don't think about your counter right now, focus on the present and something productive (pushups, cleaning up the house, etc.).
Stay strong man! Maybe you should go out and get some fresh air man (if you can of course.) Sometimes the urges are so great that even working out or cold showers don't work for me and probably the only thing to stop me is going out or taking a sleeping pill and passing out.
Definitely get out and get somewhere where it's not an option. If you can't get out, do some exercise, do some meditation, do some work, clean your house, make a fancy meal, anything that will distract you. You can do this! Break the cycle! Oh, and remember how miserable you'll feel afterwards!
Flexing my muscles for 30 seconds is actually quite helpful for getting my thoughts productive again if I get horny while studying or something. This is a common tip I have put off for months. Wishing I didn't. It seems pretty solid.
Went for a little night run. Was a clear night. Then sat under a tree and did some breathing exercises. Really helped. Thanks for your support guys. Much love. 30 tomorrow!
Good luck dude - you're aware of the urges and you came here to post. That's a huge achievement in itself. Good luck.