"Damn I really want to get off, just once. I have already done it so often." I feel the heat, I feel the blood rush to my brain, my heart pulsates throughout my brain. It´s telling me to give in, that´s it´s nature´s way, that it´s normal and just. But guess what brain, you can go home, I made it a RULE no matter what, to not PMO. I don´t need an excuse, I don´t need a reason or justification to do it. I will follow my RULES no matter what, because I respect myself. But for real, it´s 2 days now and right this moment the urges want to kill me. But I will not let them. I would rather feel the uncomfortable feelings and the depression than give in, ever again.
Go out for a walk, take a drive to a store (if you drive), listen to music, stay away from internet, distraction helps rather than fighting/ Fighting at home will only make the urges stronger. Just a heads up.
Great attitude. Most everything in life is a battlefield of the mind and you have to approach it that way. I always envision being in combat and being determined to win, no matter what. Keep fighting!!!!
