Day 2/30 - Nothing too bad I felt the thought of watching porn but didnt and preoccupied myself by going outside, and watching tv for a while.
11/30.. I was out of the house so it was easier not to give in to anything.. Although, when I go out I see a lot of women wit bodies that I am attracted to.. I made a silly mistake with one woman, and it got me in the feels, but I know how to fight off those by now.. But, I do have to be careful.. Those feels could save up to strong urges later on.. Anyways not much problems today.. I'm doin good.. I know I can make it easily to 2 weeks this time..
Hi all, Something wonderful happened today morning... There was some life down there... May be due to certain thoughts Is it ok to fantasize during hardmode? I had tried not watching porn since 23 July... But the whole next week felt severe headache, and kept on edging and finally relapsed on 1st Aug. Last 3 days was on hardmode. Had a outing yesterday and drank beer. Felt really cheerful ( something missing for a long time) yesterday. And morning around 4 I noticed a hard on! Although not a rock solid one but at least there's a sign of life
Day 12/30 So I asked that girl straight up "Did you mean to give me a fake number?" I got the sense she was lying when she said "No, my phone got cut off after I gave you my number!" Just... I kept my cool and joked around with her about the whole situation but I wish she could have been honest with me. I will be friendly towards her but I know now that I can't trust her. I have to keep a mentality of "abundance" when it comes to single women. Hopefully I find someone more mature and honest.
