I've been going on this website for the past 6 months and I let me tell you this I have actually been fighting back, I was pmo free 3 years ago for about 30 days and let me tell you those 30 days were the best I've ever had. I wanna make those 30 days into the rest of my life and therefore I want to quite pmo because I want to feel that great sensation about myself and also I want to stop feeling suicidal all the time because of it. hope I reach 90 days since the beginning of this post.
Good luck with your journey man! And please stop thinking about suicide, it's not an answer, it's for coward. You gotta fight.