Day 364, Force Ghost. I'm on the eve of a phenomenal year despite of what is going on with the rest of the world. I can only be grateful and count myself lucky. I've discovered a new path in life, one that P and M free. I can say that it's not the destination, but the journey about self rediscovery that has been extraordinary.
364 is pretty amazing, sometimes this feels like such a grind. Like a second job. I do find it easier to say to no to PMO the further I go. I hope this something I can stick with.
Day 21 checking in. Dear Lord the headaches are insane. To counter this I try to workout. The endorphins help. Keep going people we're doing this!
I relapsed today after I peeked on Twitter when I was supposed to be working on grad school homework. I'm disappointed in myself but I don't feel as awful as I thought I would. Rather than dwelling on what I should have done to avoid a relapse, I'm going to focus on how I made it to 34 days free of PMO. This latest relapse has taught me I need to do some form of exercise no matter what right after I wake up. I was feeling sore while I was working yesterday so I held off on exercising this morning. From now on, I'll take a walk or go for a drive earlier in the day to keep my mind from getting bored and/or lonely. I'm grateful for what this relapse has taught me. I will continue to move forward with purpose and persistence. Onward to 40 days!!!
Yo checking in it feels like some time has gone by since I last fapped which is a good feeling/sign not really craving any dopamine releases because I'm actually socialising quite a lot which provides a huge dopamine boost I think coz I haven't seen anyone at school for so long.
