Day 5, I went to a girl yesterday but somehow I have not felt any urges because of or after that. (5/30)
I've been ok... I usually go a couple of weeks then relapse for a day or two. The lockdown has definitely impacted my resolve. I've been trying to reach out to friends more and commit to self improvement. When I feel connected to others and am committed to growth I seem to do well. When I feel lonely and am like "fuck it, I'm not going to see anyone for awhile", I get into trouble. Yesterday I realized that I sell my happiness away too easily. Every time I fap I'm thrown off for a couple of days. Happiness is valuable and something I don't want to give up easily.
Day 0: Relapsed again... Congratulations! Yeah, I know what you mean. When you are regular seeing other people (especially girls), it's easier to get motivated to be our best selves. On the bright side, this is a good opportunity to better ourselves based on our own convictions rather than pleasing others.
Day 132, Jedi Master. Overcame my demons. It's need more than 4 months with this streak. I can now control my urges much better. I am not too alarm at sexually explicit content in media, though I'll generally avoid them.
Take it one day at a time bro. Aim for a 3 day, then 7 day streak. Let's see how it goes. Remember who you are doing this for... Yourself. Keep up the fight!
Hey! I'm so excited to be a Jedi Master and all things beyond that!! Can you count me in? I believe it will help me too much!