I need to find out what's going on my mind, This Month is to get over. I lasted only 6 days, I find it ridiculously difficult to be clean a whole year. I'll have to look for a new ways to overcome this, a least one month without watching and thinking about butts and pussies.
Sorry to hear about your relapse, but every time you keep going and try to do better for next time you place one more plank on the bridge to the end, keep it up!
Watching v. Thinking. Big difference. You want to think..most of us do. As long as you're not obsessing and self-soothing. Watching... objectification, abuse, voyeurism???? Sometimes it's good to stop and remember that these are real people..not to to judge ourselves or others, but to bring the P. activity into focus and reality.
You know why that happens? Because your mind pushes you to think about sexual stuff. You have to fight the thoughts. I know it's difficult, but you have to win!