I wouldn't beat yourself up too much over this, this is without a doubt the hardest thing I've done. It's like a full time job and it can be exhausting sometimes. The thing is, regardless of how hard this journey is I can't go back to just casual use of porn. I've taken the red pill, can't go back into the matrix and pretend like I haven't seen the truth. I will probably fight this for the rest of my life. Who would have ever thought this crap was so addictive.