Next day check in. Doing lots better but I noticed I'm now isolating for phone time. Heading back out. That and staying productive on anything is the only change I'm making for now.
Suddenly I find myself at 19 days, due to being on holidays with the family and then being off work sick, also with the family. We all got covid! Being at work is clearly my no.1 risk situation as I'm working from a home office. So my new policy is to only be in the office when I am working. No dossing in other words, if I want to slack off work I have to be elsewhere.
I goofed today and had to reset my timer. I was on youtube, and it got me. back on the saddle. I think I have been more weak because I am upset that I thought my wife was preggo and her period came hella late. It hit me hard because I seriously thought I would have a little one. It's dumb because fapping isn't going to help me get her preggo. Ugh. Starting over. let's go
The first time my wife thought she was pregnant I literally fell over, broke a picture and hurt myself, and then I too was devastated when it turned out to be a false alarm. It's a big moment in your life, so cut yourself some slack. It's ok to be hit hard with it. Good luck with the new start.
Reset today. I looked back at my journal, and noticed the exact same pattern of resets at the beginning the last few months. Still trying to figure out why--hormone cycles? Stress?--but it's good to know that I struggle at the same times every month: it means I can plan new strategies.
Friday check in - properly spooked this week, could have ended up in questioning circumstances. Have now deleted Insta and have suspended my own a/c. Bit of a wake up call. Won't go into details right now. Still 4 days in on the bright side
@JustinThyme - Congratulations on your 500 days as of yesterday! You have received the first ever 500+ Counter Blowout Award! Thanks for setting a great example for the rest of us!
