Quite surprised how few people have answered this thread... after all it is a site about sexual issues. I consider myself 95% straight but I don't think labels like straight/gay/bi are that good ( even though we all use them )... sexuality is very complicated. By the way there is a group for gay fapstronauts so maybe that might be useful for you. Whatever our sexualities... we all have similar goals here!
Heterosexual lifestyle. Married. Kids. Gay feelings. Maybe porn induced. Probably early childhood experience.
I feel like a lot of people on this site share a very similar experience to yours. And they usually tend to be older men as well