Welcome to the elf brotherhood! I plan to become a dwarf tomorrow and look forward to you joining me through and past Moria and onward in our quest. Day 49 check in: “There’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo… and it’s worth fighting for.” — Sam Gangee
Amazing brother!! Congratulations Yeah, you´re right, there should be a mark to celebrate 1 year sober. I think i will put a quest item there
Checking in Fellowship!!! 18 days!! Boarding the ferry Another withdrawal day, very tired, very unmotivated, foggy, but i literally drag myself to do the tasks at work and i did them . I remember a quote from a sportsmen "If you only work when you feel good, you´ll not go far". Later i did a workout followed by a hot/cold shower. Felt 100X better Let´s get going Fellowship!!! There´s a ring to destroy Onward!!!!!!
5 days. Long work day today. Got a call from a professor at my (former) university who has some connections at a prestigious tech company. He got asked if he knew anyone that would be interested in a job, and he thought of me because it fits my profile. While I was flattered, I pretty much turned down the invitation immediately because I already have a job that I just started and that I feel is OK. But mostly, I honestly had a hard time picturing myself getting such a good job so I felt it wasn't even worth trying. It left me with an odd feeling afterwards, why did I turn down such an opportunity when there is nothing to loose? I think I need to work on my self image, and I think there's a clear parallell to my problem PMO here - by engaging in PMO, I'm basically giving up on fulfilling any potential that I might have, just like I'm giving up on a job opportunity before even giving it a shot. Sorry for depressing post but it feels therapeutic to write here with you, Fellowship
Don't be ashamed about that and don't worry, the techological industry still growing, so new good opportunities are always there (i'm in that industry too). If a better oppurtinuty appears, take it!, the company will not be happy but do whatever is better for you. Call your professor, maybe you still have the doors open.
Checking in. Today has been weird, i had some serious urges to see women and interact with'em, even watchin' the local news i got too focused on the female reporter. Don't get me wrong, i didn't had urges to see P, or to PMO, it was just an intense feeling of engaging in some activity with a woman. I'm coming from past days of intense and focused work, but today everything went soft: i skipped gym, i did my studies and work poorly, i lacked the "energy" i had these past times. I'm having a little bit of motivation issues, all that is keeping me on my track is my discipline. But that's okay i guess, motivation comes and goes, and i'm thankful for having built a good amount of discipline to guide me through hardships. Maybe this all have to do with reboot, or maybe not. We'll see. I feel storms gathering in the horizon, it's time to embrace the huge waves incoming. As the saying goes: "A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor." Strenght & Honor!
Checking in Fellowship Friends! Day 397 free of MO and day 6 free of porn. Today I had relief from tension and stress in the morning, as well as from brain fog. Things got difficult at work in the afternoon, I did not handle the stress the best, nor did I take proper breaks as I wanted to. I will be taking the day off tomorrow, just to recompose myself. Sorting oneself emotionally can be very draining, although rewarding over the longterm, I suppose. Stay Strong! @Ready to Stop Congrats on the 1 year marker! Well done!
Day 53 I found it very difficult to fight temptation today, never before during this reboot have I considered giving in as much as I did today. As far as I can tell my brain is still getting over being someone’s crush - it’s happened before but I’ve always turned to PMO to deal with my feelings. It feels good to fight the urges, but I guess I’m just in a weird place right now. Got a couple of days off now which should be incredibly helpful for rest, but I will try and stay out of the flat as much as I can to avoid serious urges.
Congratulations on fighting through a tough day. Remember, those urges are only fleeting temptations from your lizard brain, while the freedom you will gain from keeping your commitments to yourself can be permanent level ups to your rational mind and reserves of self control. I join you in the dwarven legions momentarily, hang in there and I've got your back! Use the Panic Button if you need to in an emergency, or post here and we will rally to your cause in case of gnawing pressure.