Hi guys I know some of us are having issues with depersonalization, brain fog, flat emotions etc. I am as well. Anyway, came across this site and downloaded her book. It's free Basically you are supposed to write three things you are grateful for every day. In time, a few weeks to months your brain chemistry is supposed to change and promote "feelings" again. It's basically exercise for the mind. I'm going to try , what the heck Did some research on this and the logic is sound. We are basically stuck in a negative feedback loop. Brain has adapted to being flat. This supposedly will break it free, especially as it gets more challenging to come up with new things to be grateful for each day. That's the exercise Http://www.Anhedoniasupport.com Good luck!
I want to try this too, wanna work on this project together for a bit? Do you experience bad flat emotions as well?
Just flat, like everything is blah. Nothing excites me, and on the flip side can't even cry. So it's not like I'm depressed per se' But my logical brain is terrified about this if that makes sense. Even though I don't "feel" it. Sure I'll do this exercise with you. I already have about ten items I'm grateful for. I think they can be as simple or in depth as u want to be. No rules on what u can be grateful for
No, I very rarely have a vivid dream, unless I take vitamin b6. Vivid dreams are good I think. As far as racing thoughts... not really. My mind is generally active but it doesn't race. Have u tried meditation to quiet that up a little?
I tried it, but nothing seems to be really effective. More than one year after quitting PMO, yesterday I had an extremely vivid dream where I had sex with a pornstar, which was accompanied by a wet dream. After I woke up I felt REALLY happy for 1-2 hours, I felt a true relief. A few hours later I returned to my zombie state with no emotions, frustration, irritability etc. When I masturbate while awake, I don't get this happiness after orgasm. Rather the opposite, I get angry at myself, regret etc. This is so weird. I haven't watched a video of this pornstar for more than a year and yet in the dream I felt like I was there. I feel like this is closely tied to the depersonalization, I experience which for me feels like I am permanently in a dream. What I mean by racing thoughts is that, even if I just relax on the couch and close my eyes for a few seconds, my brain comes up with dream like scenarios / halucinations. I am not really sleeping yet, I remember strange scenarios just from relaxing and closing my eyes.
I have tried to do this for a few weeks now, and it's really helpful. I keep a list on my bedroom table, and every morning I read it and try to come up with 3 new things that I'm grateful for. Every night I read the list before going to bed. Sometimes I have to repeat myself but that's okay. The days I do it, my mood is better. Overall, I have seen a change, I'm a little more positive day to day, I find myself focusing on the positives more often. If I talk about a situation that sucks, I find myself actually turning it around and finding the positives. Highly recommended exercise.
Try one day if you have some time alone, to really express your anger and frustration. Vent it, writhe around on the floor, try to scream! Punch some pillows. Maybe even smash a few plates against the wall. Try to exagerate a little to start it flowing. Then let it out. Afterwards you will feel relieved. I just started a thread about negative emotions. Read it if you want https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/battling-emotions-read-this.146524/
your emotions will come back, they are just gone from over consumption of porn and your huge use of dopamine. Depersonalization is cured by tons of interaction with people and feeling these emotions. One more reason to stop jacking off and watching porn. Writing 10 things you are grateful for and feeling the emotion is really good for raising your level of vibration. It is also good for making more money. Read the science of getting rich and you will understand why.
Same here, I can cry if it’s really really sad, other than that I don’t get emotional. Well, I do when I see sad animal stuff on YouTube, but when a person passes I don’t get as emotional. Im scared if someone close to me were to pass I won’t feel as much as I’d expect a normal person would My logical brain is telling me I screwed up major and whether or not recovery is possible because the rebooting process is so long and this is all I known for so long.. Okay sounds good, I’ll start tomorrow, I’m focusing on my work before the holidays, good luck brother
Yea, I've gotten it going a few times. But it doesn't last. I think a good daily exercise is what I need. Really train this brain constantly.
Sounds good, I'll check in on you periodically and u can with me also Of course this invitation extends to all that want to participate
Well, I started in 2012 and became perpetual reboot relapser This last stint though I've gone 90 days with no porn and a few months prior with very little. Most of the fog has lifted but still have the blunted feelings. Libido is still in the crapper, this time it's taking a lot longer to feel rebooted
Ah man really sorry to hear it, thats a long time already, stay strong buddy we´re all gonna make it out some day