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I understand where you are coming from, i am the same age, lost my girlfriend that i am still in love with months later and struggling to move on, i lost my job around the same time due to an injury i suffered and had to get reconstructive surgery. For the first couple of months i just felt sorry for myself and how hard done by i was. Eventually i started making small changes, ill list a few of them in the hopes that they may help you out even just a little.

Setting an alarm to get up early 6:30-7:00am something like that to get you out of bed no matter how bad your sleep was the night before just get up. After a few days/weeks your body will start to adapt and you will be more tired at night and your sleep will improve.
Hitting the gym regularly (if you can't afford it atm then go running and/or do the 30 day 100 pushup challenge or something similar) get yourself into a routine and improving physique is a great way to improve self worth and confidence.
Improve your diet, this goes hand in hand with exercise and it you will become more conscious of your diet once you get in an exercise routine.
Find a hobby something you can do with regularity, i live near a beach so i set the alarm and get up in the morning and walk up and down the beach. (e.g. hiking, cycling, rock climbing, meditation)
If you aren't working right now give yourself a few weeks to get in a better headspace and start looking for employment.
Write down your feelings and why you want to quit PMO and when you are struggling look at the notes to give you some inspiration to keep going.
Realise that this self improvement takes time and it's not easy but nothing worth doing ever is. There are good days and bad but set yourself a goal and see the bigger picture, don't let the short term satisfaction on PMO stop you from the long term happiness avoiding it can achieve.

I still struggle sometimes and i've failed more times than i can count (just look at my counter) but every time i stop for a week, two weeks or more i am one step closer to quitting. Get yourself sorted before you even think about someone else, you should be the source of your happiness not someone else. Once you are where you want to be the rest will fall into place trust me.
Good luck and keep your head up.

 

The expression on her face when I told the truth. When she left, a part of me left as well--it was happiness.

When I do have to go out, I tend to watch couples and analyze the relationship/bond between one another. Funny how life goes huh.

This icon picture is from eternal sunshine and the spotless mind. I wish I could erase all the memories.