new to NoFap. help with the process

hi people

i have been looking to join this forum for a while now but for reasons of shame and guilt i didnt bother. I guess Im in a place now where i have to put my health and well being above all that. I felt like i needed to share with y'all some of the things i have been holding inside for a while. To be honest i dont even know where to start but here goes.
About 5 years ago is when i realised that excessive masturbation was becoming very detrimental to my health. I started looking at porn and masturbating at a very young age. it started off with normal stuff untill i needed more hardcore stuff to keep me hard. sometimes i would masturbate at least 5 times a day. i had lost total control of my sexual self and i was doing deviant things that im very ashamed of such as masturbating with my aunties underwear and feeling up random girls up in public. it got to the point where i was more interested in watching porn than being with a real girl. Even when i was with a real girl it was all about self pleasure. it was all about receiving, getting handjobs and blowjobs. All i ever wanted to do is ejaculate and it got to the point where i couldnt last longer for than just a few seconds. to make matters worse every girl i hooked up with i couldnt sexually please. I was and in some way I still am extremely ridden with shame and guilt and i am finding it very hard to forgive myself for some of the things I have. I am very thankful that this group is here and that i can share some of my painful stories with you all. Im well and truly on the road to recovery. i can go quite a while (at least a few months) before i have masturbated. and i have pretty much lost interest in watching porn. I still have some deviant issues that i have to deal with, premature ejaculation is still a problem and im going through an emotional rough patch. from what i understand this is a phase that i will go through and eventually become normal again where i would be attracted to girls again and be able to have a loving and human relationship. i must say it is a very hard process and it would be very kind of anyone who has experience with all this to give me some advice and some moral support would be good. im not usually the type of person to ask for help but i would really appreciate it. above all though it feels good just to be able to share this with yall and im hoping for the best. thanks and feel free to message me directly for a chat

 

Thanks alot man. Appreciate it.