The 2019 X90 Hard Mode High Accountability Elimination Challenge

Awesome job!! Yes 40 is an excellent number, I cannot wait for both of us to get there though a friend would remind me to enjoy every moment in between.

Have a great day!

 

Great job dude! Thank you for showing up every day and working towards your goals, that inspires me the most!

 

Awesome dude, busy does keep the mind occupied. Keep it up, Great job!

 

Awesome dude!!

 

Awesome dude!

 

Awesome dude, it's great that you thought your way thru that.

 

Totally worth it, I truly agree!! The benefits are real and they never end.

 

i'm checking in today.
I had some stress today which hurt my head. It's not driving me to p at all thankfully. It's funny though as I look thru my social media apps some racy pictures come up and i'm just adjusting the app to inform it that I'm not interested in them. Years ago they would have sent me down the road I don't want to go down. Now I'm sort of like tired of seeing them and thinking I don't really want to see your <bodypart>. I can see how my gf gets tired of it pushed in our faces all the time.

Anyway, stress today from work. Overthinking things and old programs running in my head. It's fear based crap that i have to think thru in the moment to realize that those thoughts are also not true. I've been thinking about writing in a journal all the times I have similar thoughts. Thoughts that really aren't my own so to speak, so that I can keep track of them. I think it'll help me deflate them and their power.

If anyone isn't clear on what I'm talking about when I say fear based, I'm speaking of anxieties and insecurities. Those are all fear based thoughts. They're kinda like I'm not good enough, I'm not gonna be able to figure this out, this project is gonna fail, etc.

Alot of people deal with anxiety, some way worse than what I have. Know that things get easier as you go thru life and learn how to handle it. The same with fighting PMO, eventually it gets easier. Experience kicks a$$ here.

 

Dude I am so freaking excited to witness this, THAT'S FREAKING AWESOME!!!! 2019, this is your year brother!!! I'll see you tomorrow when you'll shatter your previous record of 15 days!!!

 

Come back to us @control , come on @rkim, lets go @Coolyorky

 

Awesome dude!

 

Thanks! Checking-in, Day 35 no PMO. I was a bit frustrated yesterday evening and was restless and my mind started telling me how it would feel great if I touched myself but I went to bed early. For me no PMO in the longer run is making me more focused, clears my head and makes me more-confident. Men are more eager to assist me - everywhere - when I'm not trying to please or seduce them or make myself look sexy in front of them. I also noticed that I'm feeling the need to spend more time with women, in women circles - as if I am being drawn back to my own pack to take more strength and power from it.
Yup you're right - we need to enjoy the process not become focused on results. The count of the days is not that important as the process and the feeling of rebooting your mind. Though I have a plan to start my journalling theme in Women in Reboot if I make it to Day 40.
Reg all this anxiety stuff - I think it is way more common for men because of the social conditioning for them to stay strong no matter what, suck it up, be a warrior not a sissy and blah blah blah. The point here is I guess to embrace all your emotions and be vulnerable in front of yourself - a lot of men who opened up to me told me about this insane pressure upon them from the external world not to show their vulnerability - which totally pisses me off. After all we are humans not robots and we do feel vulnerable from time to time. Why it is ok for girls to cry and to open their emotions out and it is only ok for guys to suck it up in similar situations? That is why they tend to become detached from their own emotional selves and numb them by being aggressive or adopting the escapism thinking (porn is one of escapism routes sadly).

 

That is good that you are able to detach from your brain's stories and listen to them. Just remember that you're the one who's making choices. Choosing whether to give up to the urges and let your brain control you or sticking to your own decision and making your brain stick to it. Have you been using the 5 second rule? This might help you.