challenge is completed not the journey...goal is achieved not the life...one challenge over...next is started...life full of challenge & struggle...minute relaxation infinite temptation...14 days may look small in words but actually last longer than a decade in my life to survive without pmo... last year same me...same winter same blanket...same pmo & at the last same masturbation...but just a bit of change this year...rather than temptation there is oppression for this addiction...hail nofap!!!
onto day 9/14, dreams last night were strange, I was watching porn if i remember correctly, thought a wet dream was going to ensue but it didnt thankfully. Not had any real urges yet so the storm has been calm on this 9 days.
Day 5/14 (yesterday I sent the message late, but my count start from the morning) On this morning I had an O with my wife, but for me it's fine because my main goal since the beggining was to get free from PM, so I'll keep counting from the last PM. It was great because I was having PIED, and today we had a great time together. My feeling is that I'm recovering my sexual strenght, so It was like a reward for my determination.
Back to day 0. Well...this is awkward. So sad. (Sorry for the length of this post...I actually made a full version, for those who would like to know more ---> click here) It was like 3-4 AM, changed my pijama shorts for some sport pants while keeping the t-shirt...and then I started searching for suggestive pics, and it happened. Then I did it a 2nd time, now w/o pics. It was a loophole that I didn't imagine could have those consequences: not having my Google app blocked on the phone. And I did think of applying "the strategy" while at it! but the thing is, it seems that I didn't actually try to apply it at all, I just thought of it. I still am PornFree since beginning of the year! I'm realizing, more and more, that I can do NoFap no problem, even when it seems hard and I'm on the edge of falling... ...the thing is, I have to stay away from those things that push me over the edge: 1. porn (which I am, so that's good!) and also 2. plain suggestive images.I realized, stronger than before, that I simply can't afford to do it. I can do NoFap, but only (and now I know this is very important!!!) provided I respect condition N°2. So, the aftermath: historically, everytime I reset, I block those apps as soon as I reset. That's what I did last night, after that unfortunate episode (and then I M'd a 2nd time, as I mentioned u.u) So I guess I'll start again u.u but I'm confused, cause... do I have to start way back from the 1-day challenge, and work my way to this one? or- can I just do this challenge again? ...is there a right answer, or am I free to decide between those two options? I did read the rules, but I fear that I might have missed one Well, I guess that means I have to -once more- put up with this weird, superstitious thing I have that when I masturbate, the next day just turns into a hell version of itself, where everyone starts behaving strange with me or making me uncomfortable...but it's just one day, and then everything will be back to normal, provided I don't reset again u.u
Completed the 7 day challenge awhile ago, now I'm going to try the 14 day challenge for no porn.... day 0 today
Day 8/14. Feeling good to have crossed the half day mark. Friends, we can all make it through. stay together.
8/14: Havent updated the entire weekend but its gone off without a hitch. another week to go to get this done.