The Race to 90 - To the victor goes the title

Keep it up

 

Day 41 of 90: Today was a good day. I am also tremendously humbled. I know that the only challenge ever have to face is these 24hrs. But I am so humbled by what I have been able to do with 24 hrs. Posting here every 24 hrs has proven to be the greatest straight I have had in 9 years. 9 long stubborn and painful years. Thank you for your support the other day it gave me strangth when I had none.

 

31/90
Starting to have wet dreams.. first time in my life am i experiencing this.. is it normal? Do they go away? Hope it doesnt make me relapse!

 

A few days ago I had a porn dream, and I got super angry at myself still asleep, but when I woke up I realized it was just my stupid brain throwing shit at me
It comes and it goes, stay strong!

 

Today was a struggle guys, I had no intention into anything, but I stumbled on explicit content and instead of leaving right away, I stayed there for about 10 minutes. I don’t know it this means that I need to restart, but I’m very disappointed in myself. I almost didn’t share, but I felt the need to put myself out there and be held accountable. I’ll kwep pushing towards 90 days

 

That is fantastic! It is totally normal! I have found that they occur about every 14 to 28 days. The drive for PMO can also coincide with these cycles. According to everything I have read how offenten they happen can very widely for each person. They don’t go away it is part of the normal body process.

 

That’s fantastic that even your subconscious is catching hold of the new habits and determination.

 

Godsent7,
Only 10 minutes, that’s great! I’m guessing that in the past it would have pulled you in for longer. Yes, this was a tough day and yes you struggled. But habits are what we are fighting here and they don’t go easy. They require us to replace them with new habits and that takes time and diligence. By the way congrats on still having the courage and integrity to post. PMO lives off of shame, guilt and hidding. You took ownership and that means you are progressing. Hold your head high and remember that the future is NOT defined by the past.

 

Day 42 of 90: Good 24 hrs. I realized that I am lacking sleep. And lack of sleep is a trigger for me. So this will be a short post. Tomorrow is filled with great potential and that’s where I am looking too.

 

Thanks buddy!

 

I failed the other day guys but instead of focusing on my failures i've decided to focus on the successes of my 4 1/2 day streak. I actually felt bad that might sound strange but in some sense it was a good feeling. I was so used to the everyday PMO my mind had become callous to it i felt good to know i could still feel regret or a sense of shame as strange as that sounds. So its day 1 of 90 again but i feel a stronger now then i did when i started. love you guy.

 

You can do this, keep it up!

 

Day 43 of 90: Great 24 hrs. I had a little thought cross my mind earlier today, but it came and then I let go of it. I do feel a little lonely tonight. I think I need to find a service opportunity for Wednesday’s something to help me bridge the gap.

 

Thanks for reaching out Jefe! To be perfectly honest i really didn't want to tell you guys not only because 4.5 days is pretty weak but i also felt like i was letting you guys down. Trust me i know that was a irrational way of thinking because we all have relapsed more time than we can count but still just sucks you know. As to how it happened you can blame ASMR for that i know it's really strange but every now and again it actually works for me. little did i know having attractive women whisper to you can set off PMO. In hindsight probably should have thought that through a little better. Going forward im planning on replacing asmr with either music or some kind of ambient noise. I'm also thinking of setting aside a hour or so before bed to listen to a sermon and or read my bible to get my head in the right place. I always am hit the hardest when i'm alone with my thoughts which is almost always right before bed. I couldn't agree more Jefe im going to crush 4.5 this time around.

Side note today was solid no issues as its only day 1 as i had expected. As for tomorrow i'll take the bibles advice on this one Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

 

Checking in 2 days down on to day 3. Had some mild urges today mainly form sheer boredom but i managed to stay the course hope all is well with you guys.

 

Boredom is a trigger for me too. But I must ask you, what will you replace the habit of boredom with?

 

Day 44 of 90: Good 24 hrs. Although I currently have a splitting headache that I am going to need to sleep off. I struggled a with a few thoughts that made me what to follow the old habits of fantasizing about PMO things. The struggle is real, but so is the strength I gain day by day.

 

Just a quick thought, I have found that right before bed is always a triggering time for me too. However I have found that posting on here as the last thing I do on my phone gives me great strength. Plus it allows me to lift someone else. There are always others out there that could use your words of encouragement because they haven't been able to make it a day let alone 4.5 days. Go find them and lift them.

 

Day 45 of 90: Good 24 hrs. Yes a few thoughts passed through my mind but I did a good job at pushing away thoughts from my mind that were PMO. On to the next 24