Day 1 hour 1

Alright it’s time..

Just now after fapping for the 3rd time today I realized I might have a problem

Let me get y’all up to speed.
I am a 17 year old boy. I only recently been able to ejaculate for about a year and a half, this is because I was a late bloomer. This didn’t stop me from masterbating though. I was prepubescent but still able to have a “ghost shot” or “dry cum” basically I would orgasm but no semen would come out.
When I first started masterbating it was to see if I was able to cum. After a couple tries I was able to have my first ghost shot. From there I started watching porn.
It started normal, I would watch lesbian porn because I didn’t want to see any penis’s. It started I would jack off every 2nd day or once a week (depending on the week).
After a while I moved on to straight porn and started masterbating more frequently. I wouldn’t be able to go 3 days without masterbating.
By the time I was about 15 I developed very bad depression and anxiety, this led me to seclude myself a lot and seclusion led to masterbating.
Around that time I moved on to omorashi porn (fetish of needing to pee or peeing yourself). Couple months later I moved on to water sports porn (pissing, golden showers)
Around when I was about 15.5 I hit puberty and was able to actually ejaculate. This lead to me masterbating on average 4-7 times a week. Around when I was 16 I started watching forms of panty poop videos And masterbating everyday.
Around September 2018 I lost all motivation and became even more secluded and depressed. I would lock myself in my room and just watch porn and masterbate. I quit gymnastics (I used to train 23 hrs a week) and my grades were slipping. Depression made me very tired so I was in bed all the time. In bed the only thing I had energy for was masterbating. Since November I’ve been getting help for depression and I’ve been somewhat more motivated but still would wank a significant amount.
A lot changed when I started to become sexual active. I got a girlfriend in February and the first couple time we were trying to have sex I couldn’t acquire an erection. I was very worried about it and I had three conclusions;

1. I’m nervous that’s why I can’t get hard.

2. My medication (Zoloft) is affecting my performance.

3. I’m masterbating too much

I tried cutting back in masterbating for a bit and went a record 5 days without masterbating

When sex became a fun thing and no problems happened I loved it. I had a lot of sex and when I wasn’t having sex I was masterbating.

About a month ago my girlfriend broke up with me. I wasn’t too upset because I think I was just with her for the sex. But since sex hasn’t been at my disposal and I have a lot more time to myself I’ve been masterbating more than ever.

Not only am I wanking more I moved on to scat porn, gangbang, rough, and anything else that could spark my curiosity. I found that regular straight porn just couldn’t do it anymore and I’ve been lasting a long time befor I cum now.

Past couple weeks I knew I’ve been wanking more but it wasn’t until I ejaculated for the second time today I realized a had a problem. I thought back a realized I was wanking 1-2 times a day (around 10 times a week). All day all I would think about at school is when I can get home and jerk off. After school I would drive to the girls school and look at the girls walking out. I almost crashed just looking at an ass many times before. I once was not able to wait the 20 minute drive home and masterbated in a parking lot.
Back to like an hour ago, I’m lying there I finally say to myself “this is not healthy, I need to stop”

That’s where I messaged my friend, he went 60 days without fapping and I asked him for some tips.
He gave me three tips

1.nofap

2. Whenever I get the urge I have to distract myself (like pushups)

3. And surround myself around people I wouldn’t masterbate around (family, friends)

I am very motivated but I am also very worried. When I get horny it’s like I’m a whole different person whispering in my ear “everyone does it, it’s healthy, it relieves stress, think about the sexy porn you can watch”
I am very happy I found this site because it’s somewhere I can go to help control myself!
I will keep you all updated please sent tips if you want.
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