[DAY 4/7] Done! And I will post my progress on other challenges( 14 day, 21 day....365 day) once I complete this 7 day challenge. Completing each challenge at a time. ( I was in such a fury that, I checked into all the major challenges on this forum, on my first day here)
Day 2. I woke up from sexual dreams and edged a little. This is where I relapse the most. Every time I wake up, I'm always in this purgatory where my consciousness exists between dreams and reality. My willpower is the weakest and I relapse because I reach for my phone and if I look at even one picture then it is down the rabbit hole and it's hard to stop. It usually leads to full relapse and then to a binge. I ended up edging but I am not going to count it as a relapse because it wasn't long and it wasn't to any stimulus or porn flashback. It was to POV sex where I imagine I was having sex with the real girl and I was trying to visualize it in the most realistic way possible. My big goal is to quit PMO, but my ultimate goal is to get rid of an embarrassing porn induced fetish. If I slip up by edging to natural POV sex scenarios where I'm the guy having sex with the girl then I don't personally count it as a reset. Still I got to be careful and advise you guys to do the same if you are on the same boat as me. If you are using that as an excuse to edge all the time then you are lying to yourself. It counts as a relapse IMO if you do it more than one time within a weeks period. I've been doing this for 3 years and I've learned that you will slip. Little slips like this here and there shouldn't count as a relapse IMO.
Double posting today as a reminder to myself. Accidentally came across some pics today that...unsettled me to say the least. Been affecting me all day, hoping I can sleep it off and wake up tomorrow and be better I just want to for once complete this 90 day reboot challenge in a proper fashion so I can see what all the fuss is about lol. 6/7!
Checking in... Day 5/7 Still in a foul mood but my wife has got me up at 6am to go for an 8 mile run before taking the kids out for the day to a rollercoaster theme park, so that should be fun and hopefully set me straight!
Remove temptation and put your phone somewhere else. I'm guessing here, but assuming you keeping your phone by your bed, maybe use it as an alarm clock? Leave it downstairs to charge up overnight and use a normal clock-radio/alarm-clock instead. That way, no temptation to reach for your phone thinking "I'll just check my email..." and end up "accidentally" hitting PornHub. If you have to get out of bed and go downstairs to get your phone, then hopefully in that time you can make a conscious decision to resist!
Day 2 of 7 down. Five days to go. My experience with day two was chaser effects from my recent binge. Not as bad as the first day though so that's good. I also slept an awful lot yesterday.
I feel like we may have similar problems and habits. Different things work for different people, but I firmly believe in a no-excuses mentality. The way I see it, if you keep yourself accountable for every mistake you make, and realize when you're making excuses and examining that, in fact, it is an excuse and the action is either pointless, risky, or downright dangerous. Doing this has got me out of some heavy urges. However, of course, you do what seems to work for you. But if there's a clear sign that it sometimes backfires.... best to tough through and remove that influence from your life. Stay strong, friend!
