5 days in, trying for 90

Thank you guys, just the mere response that I'm not alone in this is a big thing for me, I'm have a warriors mentality for this, it's a done deal!!!porn doesn't exist anymore!!! And I'm opening up avenues to keep the mind right, eleven thank you, that makes a lot of sense just gotta give her some time to process what it is, what it means, and how to deal with it, Dante, I'm as angry as you are with myself I didn't realize how out of control it had gotten, now that I look back on things I was pmoing in the locker room at work after everyone had left from our shift, what part of the brain thinks that's normal but for some reason mine did, headstrong on day 8 only 82 short days left

 

Surprisingly no urges today, kept myself busy today, cleaned out the garage and the backyard has been neglected since I fell Christmas Eve and broke my heel, but that's another story, have any of you guys had headaches while rebooting? I don't ever get headaches since I went to my new allergy medicine, I know watching porn changes things in the frontal lobe of the brain but can not watching porn once addicted cause side effects, any knowledge on the subject would be appreciated

 

Going thru day nine and I'm feeling more anxiety than normal, gonna get busy doing something to keep the ol' mind and hands busy

 

Thanks guys, got out and washed mommas car even though it's gonna rain tomorrow and played with my dogs for a good while today, got the mind off everything and myself in the right mind set, shooting for day ten tomorrow, 9 down 81 more to go

 

10 down 80 to go. Starting to notice little things that I haven't noticed before, brain fuzz seems to be subdueing a little bit, that's saying a lot considering I'm taking pain killers at the moment, starting to notice I'm more into conversations also, my urine looking cloudy is the best word I can discribe it, hoping that's normal, one day at a time

 

12 days in, having the best day yet, not very many urges at all today, mood continues to be better with no PMO or MO, when does the dreaded flatline start showing it's ugly face, also what to do about sex, I know there's gonna be several different opinions so no bickering just post how you feel on the subject, the reason I asked is, I've seemingly gotten a lot more handsy with my wife the last two days and she's gonna want it sooner or later just from the stimulation

 

Ok 13 days in now, no urge to masturbate, but did have sex with the wifey this morning so It may have something to do with that, still have the urge when bored to cruise porn, standing fast and not letting it happen though, have been staying super busy since I started my reboot, idle mind leads to idle hands

 

Thanks buzz and I have a pretty open minded dr, we've pretty much come to a conclusion of we'd entertain the idea at least, because we have looked at many other options and didn't find the solution to the problem, well I'm starting day 15, don't really care if I watch porn anymore don't even have the urge to watch it, the urge to MO is another story, had sex yesterday and have the straight up urge to either want more sex or MO to take care of it, standing fast though as I'm far enough in now there's no turning back and I'm not giving up

 

Day 16 and I'm finding more urges as I'm down a little bit tonight, In a different situation I've let my wife down about something and feel pretty guilty about it and maybe it's my brain searching for something to pick myself up, don't know, not giving in, come to far, warrior mentality taking over

 

Day 17 starting to feel sluggish, waking up at odd times and not sleeping consistently, but the urge to watch porn seems to be almost non-existant, and wanting to MO seems to be dying down as every day passes

 

Day 18, 20% to 90 days, horny as a two peckered billy goat today, my labido doesn't seem great but it does seem to be somewhat there, noticing differences in my penis, maybe some of you guys experienced the same thing, seems to be getting lighter in color and seems to feel softer to the touch flacid, also seems like it's more sensitive than I can ever remember, I thought it would take a long time for that to happen but I'm glad it's happening sooner than later for me, still stretching for 90 days NO PMO or MO, also seem to feel more emotionally stable, not had as many ups and downs as I'm accustomed to in my day to day activities

 

Starting day 19, still no urge to watch porn anymore but to MO is a different story, my wife who I think is super hot has gotten into wearing fleece leggings around the house do she practically looks naked in them but I'm standing strong, massaging has help the ol' sack out to keep the pain minimal, warrior mentality working strong

 

Day 20,Whoa it's getting rough today, feeling like I need a release of some kind, spent all day with my wife(who I find highly attractive and sexy) and since I've talked with here about the issues with PMO she's not been very sexual with me, goes with the turf I guess, can't blame her either, can only imagine how she feels right now with the thoughts going through her head about me watching porn every day, not gonna be PMO or MO though made it 20 days put to much effort into getting this far, on the positive side my anxiety medicine sure seems to be working wonderfully now lol, have a lot less anxiety these days, warrior mentality working strong