God i feel like a total dick. Everything was going perfect. EVERYTHING. Just hate this feeling to start all over again. Kept a solid track record everyday. What is wrong with me? No porn though. Just when i start getting free from ED, i fucking go haywire. I repeat, what the hell is wrong with me, I couldnt even cross my last best streak...and yes my laptop is k9'd, not my phone. The fricking phone. Got so outraged by it, i was almost about to smash it. Any help regarding phone problems? (i guess i need to start a journal...)
Oh man, I felt the same as you. Reached 16 days (my new best goal) and fucked up because I could get through on my tablet. Pissed me off so bad, the thing is we need to have a great block on those too. Starting a journal would be great man. Ill tell you this, you did great at reaching that goal. Now it's time to get back up, fuck the phone. I threw my tablet across the room when I relapsed it's bad I know. Now, though is the time to change. Every man and women here has been terribly effected by porn and if not they are willing to go to 90 days OR OVER. It's up to you, it's not going to be easy. When you're fighting your hardest just remember you have your friends, family and of course YOU WANT TO CHANGE. I believe in you.
The reason i didn't smash it was because i had a lot of my college work stuff in it, otherwise i dont give a damn about it. Anyways, yeah you are right i guess blocking it with something will help. It's just that i dont use my phone that much, but when i pick it up, i cant get off of it. All the more, i have started a journal as well, but i am convinced this time i will not back down. Because i have felt the pain when not MO'ing, and i fricking LOVE this pain. And yes one more thing.... I WILL be the ALPHA
The question I had to ask myself was, "Are the benefits provided by a smartphone worth the risk of compromising your values?" Personally, it was very easy to answer that question with a resounding "NO". I've had a smart phone for the better part of three years, and I could break down my smart phone usage as follows: 20% - PMO 20% - Social media 20% - Games 20% - Aimlessly looking through it when bored 10% - Trying to figure out how to block porn 10% - Actually using it for productive purposes In the end, it was a no-brainer. Why would I continue to hold on to a such a time-wasting and destructive device? I gave up the smart phone for a flip phone, and I couldn't be happier about my decision. Perhaps someday I will be able to responsibly use a smartphone like an adult, but until then, I will have no shame or regret when I pull out my phone that can only be used like a phone. Know thyself.
I feel your pain too @Pratyush.This is how I failed after reaching 12 days.It's like I knew what I was doing but I didnt stop.I downloaded a lot of porn from my phone and binged for three days.I didnt throw away my phone or throw it on the floor(paid a lot of money for it lol).I read on a post somewhere that at night,or whenever you are alone,separate yourself from your phone or install an app that blocks porn.When I relasped I felt like shit and I hated to restart from scratch.I swallowed my pride and did it I reset my counter.It was part of my recovery,Dont give up you can do this!
Yeah ill be getting rid of it soon enough, although i am sure it wont be a problem now as i have blocked it with some app too And like @flipfone said, a smartphone should only be used responsibly like an adult. Very true.
Just tossed my iPhone. I really feel good about. But also took me a looong time to realize I didn't needed it. At least until im mature enough to deal with it. Now my addictive personality, however, just managed fuck me over on the laptop. That is a bit harder to solve. But I am thinking about leaving it somewhere, so don't have to bring it home with me. Stay strong.
same here man . But mine was actually stolen , and this has helped me a lot ! Now I have one of those nice old phones too and I will not buy a new one unless I'm a responsible adult . It's hard but totally worth it !
I have ED to bro. And i have to much relapses... I understand you and i don't have advice becouse, you know the pain and frustrations from ED. And i just will say: i have 200 days and more ED from my last relapse, i have to much wet dreams and i'm still no good. So, be strong and make that for yourself and your family
You need to understand how your brain works. If you fail something, brain will tell you something like "Oh come on, you know how to comfort yourself. Just this time.", and when you will succeed in something your thoughts will be something like this "Great job! I know you can do it, but you know, we can make this day even better". You need to find golden mean to this. K9, filters, blocks won't help, if you will not change your way of thinking. Good luck.
Thanks for all the wonderful tips @LongWayHome @Buzzltyr @Bjourn @roifwoha I am sure i will be able to kill my older yesterday, and be the stronger tomorrow me @arturo111 yeah i think it takes time to see what we wanna see and feel what we are meant to feel, not this...thanks btw NoFap May goes on....