I feel like a drug addict!.

i am going through some intense withdraw right now, my mind is all scrambled, I have really bad pressure in my ass from sissy addiction, I am super sensitive right now, ugh this is rough, but I kind of like it honestly, since I started pursuing God I have had no desire to relapse, I don’t think I am capable of it anymore, I feel like a addict going through withdraws but I love it because it shows the demon is fighting to keep control and I am not budging an inch!, so bring it demon! You will suffer way more than me during this process because you are going to lose in the end and I will become free!. I no longer have fear of failing and I think that is so important honestly, I won’t lie I am having urges to go drink alcahol right now but I know that is part of the demons plan, alcahol breaks down your convictions and your will, it leaves you open and vulnerable, almost every time I drink I relapse!, my mind is trying to justify me having just 1 drink, but even if I did have just one I would still be in a bar surrounded by ungodly vile people who have nothing good on their minds or tongue.

 

I drink alone but what I was saying is usually all the people in the bar are like that.