I stopped acting on the urges 5 days ago, so I basically avoided M and O ever since. Even porn, I also wanna cut it out since it makes you empty on the inside and kills the true feelings, but for now I don't care about some random sexy pictures I may step into. I had mixed feelings, boredom I know is one big problem and the first days it hits you pretty hard since everytime I am bored I get the impulse to go to my room and "fix it" or I ask myself pretty scared "Are you REALLY aware of what you're about to do?! It's crazy" like there's no other alternative to it interesting enough to do but I'm staying strong looking for the good I can possibly experience rather than being submitted to my old habits. That's it, good luck to all of you.
3 more days clean but sometimes I gotta say it's pretty tough.. For example, now, it's one of those moments so I'm gonna take a walk..
This is something I WANT to do and what you said it's true so I will try my best. Thank you very much!
