throwaway account. I need help. I am suffering.

Well, if it was only once you looked at these images I don't think you should have legal troubles, you didn't download gigabytes of underage porn to your computer, nor (which would be even worse) distributed it, nor (which would be the worst) produced it. If you are a Christian you must confess this sin to a priest, in most countries confession is protected by law and a priest should not tell the justice or law enforcement agencies unless a serious crime was produced (which is not your case). Good thing is: the shock it produced will help you keep away from porn and probably even masturbation. Try to remember the panic and horror you felt any time you feel the temptation to look at porn (even "normal" porn).

 

Confess it to your God. If Catholic a confession to priest you trust will free the guilt. You can tell your Mom if you need to but if you know in your heart you won’t go there again. I’d say just leave it be. Nothing will come of it if it’s not a pattern of your behavior. Mostly don’t obsess about it.

 

Can I first say, as a mother of two teenagers...what I would say to my son's who confessed.

My boy, my son...I am so sorry that you have been exposed to things you were never meant to see. Things you could not understand at the age you first stumbled across them. I'm sorry the world around you seeks to destroy our future leaders. The young men designed to lead a wife and protect their children were once vulnerable boys, and now are men being destroyed and their families burning with them...

I would remind him, my son, this is not who you are in Christ. This is not the yoke Christ promises His children and there is true freedom and safety in him.

You've wondered into the lion's den, and he seeks to devour you. My son, run to Christ Who is truth.

As the bible says, "I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth."

My advice would be to confess your sin, to especially your mother. I found porn on my son's tablet, and smashed it. Not just with mothers, but wives especially, confession is their heart. We can bear confession over being lied to. He suffered the punishment, and bore the shame in a moment, but had gratitude and almost a huge relief that it had passed and was out. His flesh didn't want it exposed, but the next day his spirit changed deeply to hope and thankfulness. The punishment cannot outweigh the gift of that weight and burden being removed.

The bible says to "confess your sins to one another". It also says "if we confess our sins to God He is faithful and just to forgive".

Confession is important! And as a minor whose duty is to live in submission and obedience to those above you(parents so long as you aren't told to sin), it's your duty to confess rebellion against A. God B. Yourself C. Your parents.

Repentance means accepting the outcome no matter the cost, because your mind, body and soul cannot move forward otherwise. Repentance and confession go hand and hand.

You are young and there is hope if you kill this sin much sooner at this age, than as a 30, 40, 50yr old...and let me warn you, your brain will have not changed an iota by that time. You will still be a child in your mind, and you will have ignored enough of these alarms God has set in your conscience that it will no longer alarm you.

God does not give man anything he does not want. He hands them over to their own desires as a judgement against them when they continue in disobedience and sin, falling further into depravity. I can't think of anything more terrifying.

What I would tell my son firmly and lovingly: Turn while you have the mind to do so. My boy....one isolated event is disbicable and disgusting, but if it was TRULY unintentional I'm not going to report it. I'm glad you confessed, and I would like to open up the conversation of sexual immorality and our society and I appreciate you coming to me in honesty.

Then I would bring it before our Pastor.

I don't know your mother, but if there is true fear of God in you, you would fear Him and His justice far more than any man/person.

"3For when I kept silent, my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
4For day and night your hand was heavy upon me;
my strength was dried up as by the heat of summer. Selah
5I acknowledged my sin to you,
and I did not cover my iniquity;
I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the LORD,”
and you forgave the iniquity of my sin."(psalm32:3-5)

 

forgive ur self and not doing this anymore

dark web is full of darkness , if u want to be a good guy then avoid it at all cost

 

Just relax bro. Delete the browser you used to search on the dark web and swear it off. It's really not that big of a deal. You didn't download it or get off to it so who gives a fuck? You also don't need to tell your mom or the church everytime you commit a sin. Your mom's gonna freak out I mean whose mom wouldn't? Breathe through your nose and carry on with your life.

 

It s ez to say...and early on I didn’t practice it...but my Dad once said...
‘They easiest way to avoid temptation is NOT BE where temptation is...
If it s internet p...put parental controls on ur browser so u CANT go there.

like I said EZ to say...not so ez to implement And keep in place

 

Listen to @Rustcan45 . You saw something you hated. Delete everything and move on. I hate to say this but I would not tell a soul other than us anonymously. Why? Mandated reporting laws.

You f'ed up. You made a mistake. If you told the wrong person, they would be legally obligated to call the police. Depending on the state, tht would include counselors, pastors, teachers, etc. Ask God to forgive you and empower you to not go there again.

However, this is where your life with porn is goijng. You will go back and look at harder and harder stuff if you don't cut it out of your life. Use this as a wake up call. Turn your life around now.

 

You are overthinking this. Move on with your life.

 

You sure you just aren’t paranoid or OCD? Relax

 

I actually had the same thought.

Learn from this mistake and release it.

 

I don't know your mom, but most wouldn't call the cops on their kid for this. You found yourself in the wrong place. Frankly that's a part of growing up. It's some damaging stuff you've seen, but i don't think were in the wrong on this. Learn from it and move on. And stay away from the dark web, c'mon man. You know better than that lol When I was your age the wrong place was a field, lying in the fetal position trying to avoid alcohol poisoning. I learned from that and moved on.

To be frank again, the world is full of sickos and perverts. You don't have to be one of them.

 

You made a mistake. It's understandable that you're freaking out, but no harm seems to be done. If you downloaded the videos / gifs, then it would be a different story. I strongly urge you to never use the dark web again. Nothing good will come of it. It's a sick and vile place.

You also probably don't want to tell anyone what happened, since it could lead to legal repercussions (depending on what state you're located in). What I would suggest is learn from this mistake, forget about the dark web, and try to move on. Easier said then done, I know. Just try to get on with life the best you can and forget about all this. You're young guy with tons of life ahead of you. Don't let one mistake ruin the rest of that life.

 

Find someone, parent, doctor, sibling, friend, preacher, priest or someone who, in person, will let you dump all these thoughts, fears and feelings. You need to find someone. Are you a believer? If so ask God to show you the direction you need to go to seek help.